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the end of it all

2011-08-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

For anyone who cares, I will not update my blogspot anymore because I'm always too lazy or demotivated to blog.

I've shifted to tumblr instead.

It's easier to not maintain something.
Plus it's a convenient way of receiving updates on certain things which really hold my interest.

evolving taste?

2011-05-14T15:20:00.000+08:00

Finished Mass Effect 2 two days ago and I have to say it's one hell of a space adventure! I usually avoid games which are too futuristic/space-themed and also shooter games. Definitely not my cup of tea but after coming across countless praises for this game, I decided I had to give it a try!

Lucky for gamers who do not own the Xbox360 or a gaming PC, this was released for the PS3 a few months back together with an interactive comic which summarizes the events of the first game and a few DLC packs. Great deal!

I was a bit skeptical when I first bought the game. Despite being a RPG, it still looked too much like a shooter but after 2 hours, I was convinced that I purchased the right thing because by then I was hooked. Busy completing sidequests and mining for more resources to fortify whatever necessary.

Very diverse cast, each character comes with an interesting story. Each leaves a different impression and I like how I get to choose who to bring during missions. Though it's a shame that the romance options do not allow same sex relationships. I'm hoping this will be rectified in the third game (2012!?). Bonus points for no annoying voice acting, I actually dig the voice acting for the female main character though I haven't gotten the chance to try out a male character.

She reminds me of Angelina Jolie.

Though there are many terms which can be overwhelming to those who haven't played the first game, fear not for the dialogues and codex are both helpful. Difficulty setting is very flexible and it can be changed whenever possible though I don't plan on touching insanity....

Battles are fast-paced but I heard different approaches can be taken depending on which class you picked. The only thing which I really hate is the sub vehicle missions. The controls are awful; hence, the frustration. Hopefully they'll get rid of this in the sequel or at least improve it.

And because music is one of the top 3 things that I look for in a game, ME2 doesn't fail. The music isn't very impressive but there are a few memorable tracks here and there that invoke intense feelings when played. I just found out that Jack Wall is the composer. Now if I get to see him again live this year, I might ask him to sign my copy of ME2. That's if he's willing to, lol.

Overall, the game is incredibly immersive. It's like how you want to rush it to know the end but when you're there you get this sad little feeling that it's all over and you're gonna miss the game. ME2 has changed my view towards shooter/space-based RPGs and right now I'm dying for more Mass Effect related things. ~~Someone answer me why the hell is the first game not released on the PS3?~~

Frankly speaking I can't wait to start a second run, this time using a male character instead but for the time being I'll be busy with Yakuza 4 (was also very lucky to get a second hand copy; nevertheless, it was in perfect condition). :)

That wasn't the only thing I completed, I've also finished both seasons of Code Geass and I'm 101% sure that Lelouch and Light from Death Note are actually brothers separated at birth. If you've watched both animes, I think you'll agree with me.

Picture taken from here.

I'm not sure which I prefer more but both are gems. DN is darker and more twisted while CG is more emotional and there's more drama to it. Music-wise DN would win because its post-rock tracks are excellent but what the heck, why am I even comparing them? They're both of different genres though the main characters are amazing strategists.

Now what should I watch next.

rad lookin' free gift from Uniqlo

2011-05-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

As expected, Uniqlo's second opening in Malaysia wasn't as crazy as the first one. Though I have no idea why they've chosen KLCC instead of other places, perhaps somewhere like Mid Valley or 1 Utama? (KLCC and Fahrenheit are both too far for me!) Upon arrival, Mey and I grabbed something quick for lunch then straight away proceeded to queue up. Thank God the line wasn't too long. We managed to enter the shop in less than 10 minutes.

I'm convinced that the one in Fahrenheit is bigger. There's only one floor for this, go figure. One of the main reasons I went there was to '8' and of course see if I could get any Evangelion or Metal Gear Solid shirts. Fortunately I wasn't expecting much, turns out that only stuff like Naruto, Dragon Ball and One Piece shirts were available (what's with the sudden OP craze anyways?).

Pretty happy with my purchases, especially the free gift, which is extremely sweeeeeet! I'm no One Piece fan but hell, the design for this tumbler is sooooo my thing! Shots from different angles:

Luckily Mey pointed out that any purchase above 200 is entitled to this or else I would've missed the chance thanks to the blur cashier who didn't inform me at all.

Was also in Genting for a couple of days. It was fun! My last time there was like a few years back so I haven't gotten on the rides for a very very long time. Still a chicken when it comes to Space Shot, and don't think I'll ever get on that. I've no idea whether it's me or the rides have really gotten shorter! They were longer and more thrilling when I went with my relatives during my secondary years. Ate too much, especially during the hotpot dinner, literally ate a few steaks in one go; so from now on I can't succumb to the makan-more-coz-its-holiday temptation.

what angered me and what didn't

2011-05-02T13:56:00.000+08:00

I'm totally in the mood for big fat complaints.

Let's not touch on pet peeves or else I'll have too much to say.

THE 'wedding of the century' took place a few days ago. 'm aware that they are many people out there who respects or admire them in various ways and they'd hog the television / internet for hours to witness the whole ceremony because yeah it's g-r-a-n-d and very very elegant. Nothing's wrong with that but you know what totally irks me is those bunch of people who keeps telling others to watch it.

They say things like,

"You're big already. You have to watch things like that".

"Such grand wedding ceremonies are extremely rare. You should expose yourself to such things".

They go on and on with the same points paraphrased. Stop it.

People all have different interests and I for one have ZERO interests in weddings, let's not even drag same sex marriage into this or I'll talk non-stop. It's fine if you're so intrigued by this wedding. If that's the case go ahead and watch it and stop telling me to watch. I'm not bothered at all.

The worse thing is this. If such wedding were to happen in Malaysia (as in the Msia's royal families etc), would you even bother to watch it (assuming there's live coverage)? Be honest now. How many people would watch it? I know that I won't. But people who watched the recent wedding of the century, how many of them would watch it? It's safe to say zilch but of course I might be too presumptuous here. But then again adults that I've spoken to said that it's not worth watching the ones in Malaysia because hey, it's Malaysia so it's not gonna be as grand and it'll be boring, waste of time, bla.

Now you see why the young generation these days have no love for their own countries. As much as I talk bad about Malaysia from time to time, it IS SAD to see adults telling such things to kids. This will obviously lead to people having no love for their country. I admit that I'm not very patriotic but I believe that it's because of how I was brought up, very much due to nurture. My parents or family weren't exactly the patriotic kind and I believe most of us here didn't grow up in patriotic families.

By telling your kids such things you're conveying the message that other countries are far more superior than Malaysia. Fast forward ten years, what would your kids think? Malaysia sucks, I wished I was born in America, in Japan, in this in that. Anyways yes, I just felt that it was quite sickening to hear such things from the adults I've talked to including my own mother.

Moving on to happier things, watched Thor with Ann yesterday. Highly entertaining. Great blend of action and humor. Nothing much to dislike especially when there's Natalie Portman. Nothing much to shout about the story though, very straight forward. Also met Nigel and his mom at Coffee Bean, what a small world!

Maroon 5's concert was fun too, very energetic performance by the band. Great tracklist, they played most of my favourite songs including the not so well known Secret and they were pretty friendly with the audience, encouraging them to move forward. Had the chance to talk to the super Adam Levine fangirl aka Audrey for a very short while, wow her hair is loooong!

On Sunday, there was a 3 page article in The Star (thanks to Mey who informed me about this) which covers common LGBT issues like bully, disrespect, rejection, prejudice and you get the idea. Good effort I say. It takes such actions to raise awareness. The article would be even better if they focused more on lesbians and ftms as well. Dr Goh was interviewed and judging from what he said, maybe it's safe to assume that HELP is pretty gay-friendly. Btw isn't this an excellent opportunity/timing to suggest to him about the LGBT club that we spoke of awhile ago? Anyone? :p

marks the start of zero textbooks diet

2011-04-26T16:18:00.000+08:00

Finished my last paper just now and hey, I've made it through year 1! (I know that's nothing much to shout about except for the fact that my age has the dreadful number-- 2). Thoughts on this semester :

I've been lackadaisical but I guess that's okay because of the nature of the subjects.

Spent more than usual because I've gotten too lazy to wake up at 6 to get parking at main block, have been parking too much at the pricier places.

Have been skipping marketing classes practically every week because oh God, it's just unbearable inside that hall, which results in spending more too but that's okay, life is short so have fun right!?

Coming out to friends is easier than to family members but not everyone accepts it, some reactions are quite funny from my pov, but that's also a part of diversity, I shouldn't make fun of this so often (but I can't stand it, lol).

That's about it.
Looking forward to have a fun filled sem break even though it's a bit too short for lazy people like me. :)

Saw this on Autostraddle today, magical beans to keep your coffee or any other beverage warm. These magical beans or better known as Coffee Joulies help to lower the temperature for safe consumption when it's too hot. On the other hand, it brings the temperature to the right level of 'hotness' when the drink cools down.

You know what, this is fucking appropriate for heavy coffee or tea or whatevershytbeveragethatyouhavetoconsumehot drinkers. Brilliant brilliant idea but they're really pricey right now because it's new, it's not mass produced and they lack funds. Here's the link if anyone's interested. Coffee Joulies

Once mass production starts, it'll be as cheap as table knives, at least that's what the creators claim. Will definitely get them to live a happier life. Like seriously, cold coffee kills the fun. That said, coffee which eventually turns cold is better than none, gonna make one right now and enjoy it while I watch Code Geass.

the sinister bunny

2011-04-03T11:23:00.004+08:00

Unless you're still a teenage fanboy who likes to see schoolgirls or bimbo looking girls fighting in sexy little attires, you should avoid Sucker Punch at all costs or you will walk out of the cinema feeling like a sucker who just got punched a million times right in the face. The poster looks attractive enough, especially the mech with the bunny (don't act like that didn't catch your eye when you first looked at the poster) but don't let these things deceive you! Let's make things simpler.

Poorly assembled cast.
Bad plot and the whole thing doesn't feel linked.
You never get to see the MC dance. At the end of the day it's like an empty promise.
Battles are too repetitive or predictable by the third dance. At this point you just want the movie to end.

To be fair, the movie has strong points.

Bloody gorgeous visuals. The setting is great especially during battles and the asylum itself really sets the mood.
Certain battles are like huge ass video game boss battles.
Soundtrack is okay but I don't really fancy the rearrangement of Sweet Dreams.

It's a movie that you either like or hate, no in betweeens. Better movies that I've watched recently are The Fighter and Amphetamine. Was forced to watch Just Go With It with Ann yesterday because we were late for Unknown and surprisingly, I didn't get bored to death. In lieu I nearly cried due to excessive laughter. Highly recommended.

Only 3 weeks ++ left before the end of this semester, can't wait to get my hands these.

Putting Catherine there makes me look like a pervert.

Both unifi and my phone are being major bitches. Net is down and it won't be any better until next week, speak of efficiency! And no matter how many times I restart my phone, I can no longer hear voice of the caller. I guess there's no choice but to get a new phone-- a cheaper one which caters more to my music needs. No, I'm not gonna be a victim of the today's shiny phones because money should be invested in NGP. (how come NGP doesn't have phone functions!? gah)... and I guess I can just forget about getting the Playstation Phone, there's nothing much that I want from that besides playstation controls. Don't ask me why but it's really joyful and reassuring when I see squares, x, circles and triangles. How therapeutic. :)

freud wouldn't think this is amusing

2011-03-21T20:52:00.003+08:00

~~Let's play Spot the Obvious for a change!~~

EDIT 2 :

Humans make mistakes all the time. It's okay but this is funny. It's funny, really. But that's not all, it's also disappointing and embarrassing. Don't they check before putting such huge signboards up?

~~Is it acceptable for our english to be at this level?~~

~~What's the best thing that could happen? Person A seeks psychotherapy but couldn't or didn't see the upper signboard. Walks into the shop. Go figure what happens next.~~

EDIT : So apparently the chinese words match 'psychotherapy'. If anyone is kind enough to double confirm this, I'll take back what I said earlier. ;)

Thanks to Zhi Hui for pointing out and Nigel for confirming the mistake that I made. That said, I'm still extremely skeptical because this shop is located very near my Ipoh house. Like really? Such an impressive all-in-one-solution right near the houses and all? Seems too good to be true but oh well, you know how Chinese people can make the impossible happen all the time. I'm talking about those from China.

Not in the mood to write much because I'm off to play Dissidia 012. Lightning goes portable!

unpleasant things found in raspberry cereal --- potong steam

2011-03-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

Looks delicious? Let me tell you that it smelled really nice (raspberries!) and thank God because I was too busy filling the jar and cleaning up the mess, I didn't put any into my mouth.

The moment I opened the box, the packet inside got tore apart (it was a mess!) so I thought it was because I was too aggressive. Mom tried one and said it tasted weird so we started scrutinizing them.

Upon closer inspection :

Gross, no?

Throughout my 19++ years of having various types of cereals, I haven't come across such atrocious quality control!

No, it's not locally manufactured/a local brand. It's quite a big company in Poland.

Truly disappointing experience. Don't think I'll dare try this brand (at least not for a few years).

instant coffee must be bought with careful evaluation!

2011-03-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

Another one of my favorite instant coffee.

Also a Vietnam 3-in-1 but unlike G7, this is local made. It's not ubiquitously available, especially not in your usual supermarkets. This can only be found in shabby looking sundry shops. I've no idea why.

Love the 'burnt taste' (literal translation from cantonese) and its creamy texture. The best thing of all, it's not as sweet as the usual 3-in-1. You know how some of them contain so much sugar? It's like they're conspiring to kill us coffee drinkers with diabetes! So there's this bittersweet aftertaste, which in this case is really pleasant.

It's scary to find out that people I like resemble each other. I've got a few examples but I'll just use the Johnny Depp-Atsushi Sakurai one for today.

Not the best photos to prove the resemblance but oh well, Sakurai can easily pass as an asian version of Depp.

While I was image googling just a while ago, I stumbled upon this really POSITIVE photo of Manson. Looking like a penguin here. Guess I'm really enjoying every moment of my free time after mid-terms. Better savor every bit of it because this week will be a busy one with the NGO visits and the commencement of Marketing assignment. How I dread them.

Not gonna write much about what happened in Japan since everyone knows about it already. Let's all wish and pray for Japan's recovery. But wait, that's not all we can do. Another REALLY GOOD thing to do is cherish what you have now-- your life, surroundings. People, any other living things, animals, whatever objects that are around you. Take them in, like really feel the connection and appreciate that particular connection because you wouldn't know when you'll never have the chance to do so.

Like a G what?

2011-03-06T08:57:00.001+08:00

The Vietnamese people must have been scoffing when they heard the song Like a G6. It's really amazing how close their names are but the experiences are like heaven and earth. G7 tastes really good whereas G6 annoys the fuck outta me.

Mockery? More like fuckery.

2011-02-28T20:34:00.000+08:00

I don't hate exams. There are papers that I look forward to and there was even once I arrived a day earlier. Just imagine the sheer excitement and anticipation! Exams give you the chance to prove that you're good at something and introspectively, there's something in you which goes like, oh, I've actually learned this much throughout the semester! It's feelings like these which made you sense growth. And you also don't feel ripped off because education these days is all about money making. At least there's something worthwhile after letting them leech so much. That said, there are papers which are just atrocious. They're so abominable to the extent I don't even consider them exam papers anymore.

What's the most common route to a good grade? Cram as much as you can from the textbook and purge it out in the exam hall. It's like students expected to operate their brains like external hard disks. There's even something worse. Tertiary education has really opened my eyes to the absurdities of the current exam formats.

Imagine questions like these :

1. Which person below wasn't discussed in class when we covered chapter 2?

2. Which person's picture was placed next to the monkey in my slides?

3. Which movie was played to illustrate -insert any theory you want- during my first class?

4. In the movie played during the introductory class, what's the role of the main character? A pirate? A slave?

IMPORTANT NOTE : ANSWERS ARE NOT RELATED TO CONCEPTS AND ANSWERS CAN'T BE FOUND ON GOOGLE OR ANY BOOKS RELEVANT TO THE SUBJECT.

Evidently, the lecturer wants to test your memory more than your understanding of the subject. Are you serious? Is that the whole reason behind exams? Because in dictionaries, exams is defined as a set of questions or exercises evaluating skill or knowledge. I don't see how these questions serve to test any of our skills or knowledge pertaining to the subject itself.

If I could answer all the questions above, does that I mean my comprehension of this subject is 100%? Does that I mean I could stand in front of everyone and proudly declare that I'm an expert at this? N-o. Fuck, no. These questions are totally irrelevant and they serve as what I would call filler questions or more like questions to punish those who didn't make it to class, at the same time rewarding those who were present. Plain injustice. What about students who couldn't make it to your class because they had other things to attend to but in the end they still attempted to apprehend the subject itself?

There's no evaluation of skills or knowledge going on here. These questions are completely memory-based; hence, for students who really took the effort to read the textbooks and understand the core concepts, too bad for you. What irks me most is futility of trying to grasp the essence of the subject. If I knew these kind of questions were coming, would I even bother so much about the textbook? Once again, n-o.

I just think such wtf-questions are ludicrous, even more when there's more than one out of 75 questions. Imagine how much marks are lost and the paper isn't an exam anymore. It's a memory test conceived by lecturers who thinks it's amusing. (Or maybe just too lazy to construct better questions to test the students?) Such mockery! Either way, somebody please direct me to the customer service of Dept. of Psychology because I earnestly plan to write a letter of complaint.

how musicians' hiatus can be detrimental to fans

2011-02-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

If you like an artist, how do you gauge it? What draws the line between an ordinary and a die-hard? For me, it's simple. This doesn't necessarily have to be a musician, it can be anything. My obsessions/fascinations draw out the 'little kid' in me who's more excited, happier and speaks illogically; quite the opposite compared to the usual indifferent me. (Oh btw my mom calls me a tree, no idea how's that related but apparently it has something to do with the branches being blown by the wind).

So last week during one of the classes, a guy suddenly walked in with this black shirt which looks like this.

Photo isn't very clear because it's a direct scan from somewhere; I've forgotten where. Not like that matters (my apologies to the one who scanned it). Anyways, it's an official Utada shirt which was released prior to her hiatus. There's a drawing of 'kuma' or in English-- bear. Fans will know well how Kuma is representative of Utada. (There's a song dedicated to her bear-- which I really dislike, she takes photographs of her bear, the bear gets to travel with her on her tours, she bathes her bear and the list goes on).

The point is this, the guy was wearing this shirt and I got so excited; hence, the processing in my mind went haywire. Apparently, I said 'Oh My God' very loudly for a few times because I didn't think that someone in Malaysia would be wearing it. (IIRC, the procedures are pretty tedious, not all credit cards work and so forth; on a side not, it's fucking unfair how Japanese people always get the coolest things). So I kept probing that guy for more information which really led to a negative outcome. I think I kinda scared him because he doesn't look like one who's very fond of talking. And I thought Utada fans should love each other and stop being so mean to each other. Anyways, the guy was even using Metal Gear Solid file. So, I'm envious beyond words.

That's that. Prevalently, Crystal won't go around screaming her head off and grinning stupidly unless there's something which really aroused her emotionally.

Back to the issue of being a fan. Most fans can't tolerate it when others speak ill of their their idols. Haters gonna hate so why bother much? But I think what makes a fan a true fan is this, willing to accept your idols' shortcomings And if it's okay with you, it's even better when you're fine with making fun of them like this.

Sex-ed up titles of Utada's songs.
Seriously, fans can get really bored when their favorite musicians go on hiatus.

Heart Station - Virgin Station

Can You Keep a Secret? - Can You Keep it Hard?

Simple & Clean - Sex & Cum

Tokyo Nights - Tokyo Nights (I Hope I Get Raped)

Show Me Love(Not a Dream) - Show Me Dick(Not a Dildo)

Be My Last - Be My Fuck/Come At Last

Colors - Condoms

Wait and See - Wait and Pee

Fight the Blue - Fight the Juice

Kremlin Dusk - Kremlin Fuck

First Love - First Dick

Boku wo Kuma - Boku wo Cuma

Keep Tryin' - Keep Fuckin'

Uso Mitai Na I Love You - Uso Mitai Na I Fuck You

Gentle Beast Interlude - Gentle Breast Interlude

Kiss and Cry - Kiss and Cum

Goodbye Happiness - Goodbye Virginity

Flavor of Life - Flavor of Cum

Stay Gold - Stay Hard

You Make Me Want to Be a Man - You Make Me Want to Fuck a Man

Beautiful World - Beautiful Whore

Addicted to You - Addicted to Blow

Devil Inside - Dick Inside

valentine's dinner with mom

2011-02-15T20:33:00.000+08:00

Despite my love for most pastas, I don't really fancy Spaghetti much and that's also why I don't order Bolognese Spaghetti whenever I dine out, even more so when it's not a Italian restaurant because they'll use lots of ketchup together with pre-made sauces for this dish. Major disaster. Before I started adhering to this rule, I always felt ripped off whenever this happens.

Since then, I made it a point to only eat Bolognese Spaghetti prepared by mom. Not pure Bolognese, there's a bit of fusion to it. Nevertheless, it tastes way better than most restaurants out there.

Photos courtesy of mom's.

Take note of the amount of veggies, prawns, mushrooms and garnishing which are usually kept to the minimum when I eat out. They usually give you really little of these and to compensate, lots and lots of noodles-- which really irks me. But my mom's the exact opposite. That's why I love it when she cooks for me. To be frank, that's also why I sulk or put on faces when she changes her plan to eat out during the last minute. Very nasty thing to do but it can't be helped.

Speaking of food, my tastes has changed once again. I'm beginning think Lou Sang/Yee Sang as pretty acceptable. Used to detest it a lot when I was a kid. Would only take the keropok and pamelo bits. This year I've been indulging in 2 servings whenever possible though I must say it's more enjoyable if we do take away because grated carrot will be added in. Chinese New Year ends this week so most probably there will be one last session because my mom really fancies it.

Sites better than your typical social networking

2011-02-12T10:10:00.001+08:00

It's a tad late to talk about new year resolutions but if a survey was done, I believe the results would reveal that a high percentage of us aim to get more things done, which also means less procrastination. Whether the task is something small or big is not the issue here. And since we're all so ~~dysfunctional without the internet & we 'face it more than we face our family'~~, it would be great if we could fully use the internet to our advantage.

Because my laptop is practically on 24/7 with access to the internet connection whenever I'm at home, I find TeuxDeux to be extremely useful. I've only started to use this a week ago and it has helped me to get more shit done than before. At least minor tasks won't slip off my head (provided if you remember to jot them down in the first place). Take a look.

Very clean interface, completely no-frills without unnecessary features. Extremely user-friendly and has the right editing options. You just have to input what you need to do for the day and as you go along, cross out the tasks you've done. Tasks can also be dragged to another day. You know yourself best, if you're gonna keep dragging them to the next column (or day), procrastination is taking place so of course, you gotta have adequate discipline and self-control. Registration isn't time-consuming at all because they don't ask for unnecessary shit. Why not give TeuxDeux a try and see whether you can really get more things done, at the same time become a happier person?

Another site that I've recently started using again is LastFm. Was inactive for a few years because ever since I switched from the ancient chunky desktop to this laptop, I got too damn lazy to install a plugin which tracks what you listen to. Because my hibernation period was too damn long, I decided to delete my 'listening history' during secondary school and started from scratch all over again a few days back.

So what's the point of this site? If you're someone who listens to music as much as I drink coffee--uhh. Bad example. More like how much I think about coffee but I'm sure you get what I mean. And also if you're one who likes discovering new artists and music, this site works wonders! From what you've been listening, they recommend similar artists. That way, you get to broaden and diversify your listening experience.

Each artist also has a page which means you get to see top tracks and albums. This feature is what I love most because say I'm new to this particular band and I'm interested to listen to more of their songs, I get to see which tracks are the better ones (or more like which are the overrated ones). Besides, like every other place on the internet, you get to see people fighting over the smallest things and it's pretty entertaining because some fans really go all out to defend their opinions or favourite artists.

If you have other sites which you find to be incredibly helpful in any areas, please recommend them, I'd be glad to try them out.

Some People Will Never Get It

2011-01-29T12:50:00.000+08:00

Have you tried discussing equality with an opposite sex? (Question directed towards females).

So I was talking to a guy today and I'm not gonna state who because if you know me well enough, most probably you could take a wild guess and get it correct. Shouldn't be too difficult because I'm not surrounded by a huge number of male friends/relatives. Let's cut to the chase.

Initially we were discussing divorce rates and the figures have increased tremendously these years and so I said if heterosexuals aren't taking their marriages so seriously, why give gay people such a hard time when they sincerely want to get married with each other? Look at how they fight for their marriage to be legalized, all the trouble they have to go through. And then he made an irrelevant point : if the battle for gay marriage to be legalized is a success then there would be nothing for them to look forward to anymore, they won't be special anymore.

Worst. Most. Insensitive. Statement. Made. Ever.

Yours truly was incredulous when I heard that. So he thinks that gay people view themselves as being incredibly superior? If homosexuals were so special, there wouldn't be fights for better rights in the workforce and other aspects. And so I started to explain to this Mr. that not only marriage rights are at stake here.

Then he said, it's the same for females. I truly concur. Yes, we're all aware that we still live in a pretty much male dominant society and most are still misogynistic. I'm not saying that all males on Earth are MCPs. That would be a mistake because I do have male friends who are not and they're such lovely people.

Since he brought up the topic on females so I began to expressed my views on how the females deserves more rights. I was appalled when he said that it's 'LIKE THAT' in all societies and 'it has always been like that', 'there's nothing you can do about it'. Does Feminist Movement ring a bell? If it weren't for that, how badly will women still be oppressed today? Think about it. Think of how much progress we've made. Think of the liberty we have compared to those days. That said, females are still viewed as sub par when it comes to many areas; hence, action still needs to be taken. We need to hold firm.

The most obnoxious point of the whole thing was this, as I was trying to present and further elaborate my points, he constantly interrupted me with words jumbled up together like a little kid (Think 'asdasdsasdasa'). Perhaps to prevent me from talking. That act alone made him seem childish and he ought to act better for his age, especially when engaging discussions like this one.

And also, he kept saying that what happens next when rights for homosexuals and women is achieved? To quote directly, "what's next? what's next? there will be nothing for them to look forward to anymore". Nothing for uh what? If you don't think that statement is as mindless as those made by simpletons, I don't know what is.

Do I look like a prophet? Or someone who can predict the future by looking into the crystal ball? If everyone thinks like you, no improvements will be made to society. He's missing the point, it's not what's next that matters.

Society is always in a state of flux. There's never the best of the best but shouldn't we be focusing on what can be achieved for the time being?

On a side note, I'm well aware that I've abandoned this blog for quite some time but I was really ticked off just now so I had to find an outlet for 'release'; thus, this very sudden update. So yeah, please excuse my emotional rants.

gay or not gay...?

2010-05-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

Ever since I read Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman, I've been on a lookout for Murakami's works. Back in 2009, it was still difficult to find his books but nowadays it's way better. I should learn how to be content but sometimes it's quite a challenge when you're too fussy or too adamant. Just a few days ago I downloaded all his e-books. I do support e-books but simply because I adore his works so much, once again I went out to hunt for the physical genuine ones today (the last Murakami book I bought was about 3 weeks ago-- speak of being broke).

Saddened by the fact that most bookshops do not have a brand new copy of Kafka on the Shore, I picked up Sputnik Sweetheart. Bloody thin but I think After Dark is thinner. Despite its so called lack of content, I still bought it because the synopsis was convincing enough and it was also out of ire that they do not have a clean copy of Kafka. Yes, I'm about to get to the core of my post.

If you're easily offended by homosexuality, do not continue reading. I won't be responsible if you feel like throwing up or killing me with a gigantic crucifix after you finish reading the post (I highly doubt you'll feel like doing so, there's nothing graphic about homosexuals down there).

"..Surprised that she might after all be a lesbian, Sumire spends hours on the phone talking to her best friend K about big questions in life..."

the word 'lesbian'. The L word to be exact (no pun intended) reminded me to update my blog. Ponder this for a moment. Do you refer to your lesbian friends as LESBIANS? Or do you actually label them gay?

Now I've been observing people for quite some time. I can't help but notice how straight people like to label their lesbian friends as lesbians instead of gay friends. I'm not sure of other countries but in Malaysia, it is extremely rare for straight beings to say things such as "*inserts a girl's name* is gay". Prevalently, you'll hear things from straight people such as "*inserts girl's name* is a lesbian". It's like a rule that most straight beings adhere to, use the G word for males, the L word for females.

The funny thing here is (perhaps you won't find it funny but seriously, I find this REALLY funny), most lesbians like to label themselves gay or simply put, they use the word 'gay' in lieu of 'lesbian' in day to day conversations and whatnot. Of course, this is only applicable to english speaking people. I've a friend who said that she preferred being labeled 'gay' instead of a 'lesbian'. Hah.

In the LGBT community, statements like, "You're sooo gay" and "She's soooo gay" are really common but if things like that come out from your mouth when you're talking to a someone who hasn't been exposed much to LGBT related content or perhaps they themselves do not have lesbian or bisexual friends, they might give you odd looks. Now they're not to be blamed.

With that said, I can't help suspecting that a girl/lady/woman is gay/bisexual when she uses the word 'gay' (as in to refer to all homosexuals including lesbians) because like I said, it's only common for gay girls to use that word.

This post of mine might seem to contain stains of sophistry here and there but hey, do think about it. I have close to ZERO straight friends who use the word 'gay' when they speak of their lesbian friends. Close to zero means I do have a few straight friends who use the word 'gay' on girls. Thing is, her close friends belong to the LGBT community so she must have been exposed to terms like these. This is even more noticeable among adults. My parents/relatives/cousins who are way older than me have NEVER EVER used the word 'gay' to label female homosexuals.

Are you starting to think that my post is absurd? Believe me, this is not a joke post. I'm not babbling trash here. Your thoughts will be highly appreciated. :)

awkward moments in the living room

2010-05-10T10:30:00.001+08:00

Certain games are only meant for playing when you're alone or when nobody's in the same room with you because video games these days are not as innocent / bubbly as they were decades ago. Sex and nudity are no longer unorthodox elements in a game.

Last night I was getting through the final hours of Heavy Rain, which include an interactive sex scene and performing striptease. When I say interactive, it means you're required to input a sequence of commands as prompted for the game to progress. Okay I was exaggerating, it wasn't entirely a interactive sex scene, more of an interactive make out scene which eventually led to sex. Unfortunately players no longer have control over the character during the sex scene.

Oh boy, it was really awkward, thanks to the presence of my mom in the living room. I like having the volume really high when I enjoy my games; thus, the characters were moaning. Thanks to her headphones, she was too busy listening to her pop tunes and hardly paid attention to what I was doing. Perfect timing because my dad went out to buy his cigarettes so no one was watching but still, there was tension in the air.

If you think that's not much or it doesn't qualify as nudity, check this one out folks. Too bad for you if you're sensitive to boobs. Oh anyways, it's just pixels. ;) It's the shower scene where players get a close view of Madison's boobs. This scene took place last week and fortunately my dad was in his computer room.

My point is, it's just uncomfortable when you're enjoying a game but at the same time you're wishing that others do not pay any attention to you just for the sake of reducing awkwardness. I might sound stupid here because I'm already 18, it's perfectly fine for me to be playing games with sexual content but it just feels weird doing so in the living room with my parents there.

I'm gonna do a few more playthroughs to get the all the trophies. In other words, these awkward moments are inevitable.

A simple conclusion can be drawn from this, getting my own lcd/plasma is essential for full gaming comfort and enjoyment.

Lest you have no idea what the hell is Heavy Rain, please don't make ridiculous judgments, no it's not a stupid sex hentai game. I don't dig those stuff. Those games are catered to horny people who love looking at japanese/anime looking chicks with huge breasts cry in pain when the male character inserts his very-- I think I better not go in detail.

Photos from gamesradar.com.

Screenshots from youtube.

blood donors wanted

2010-04-25T22:36:00.000+08:00

First week of sem break was okay. Grandpa's still in hospital now. Have been visiting him these few days. His leg was swollen but the doctor said it would be okay soon. Hopefully he'll be able to walk after 6 months, physiotherapy included. Bad news, we owe the hospital blood so we're looking for blood donors. Anyone interested? Lol. So far there's only one person from my family who's able to pay back. Others all have impure blood (t~~hyroid problems, blood pressure, insufficient blood~~) What a pity.

Had the opportunity to attend Great Eastern's Annual Dinner or some Wings Associate Annual Dinner thing. I don't really know the exact name for the dinner. I just attended it because my godmom/aunt is an insurance agent and she had extra tickets so we went there to support her. Was quite an eye opener. Didn't know insurance firms have these type of events. Selling insurance can be fun. You'd think so if you were there. The amount of trips they go per year! Korea? Taiwan?

Anyways, here I bring you the highlight of the evening! A parody of Wondergirls' Nobody. The chick in the middle is hot, the one with curly hair. No, I'm serious. Check out his-errrr I mean her dance moves. :)

And since we're here, a shameless promo for my latest cover of Snow's Theme from Final Fantasy XIII's soundtrack.

Signing off to watch X Japan Live in Hong Kong.

VGL in Malaysia - 17th Apr 2010

2010-04-18T22:41:00.004+08:00

Note : Wrote this yesterday because I was afraid that I'll forget, lol and posted this after 24 hours? Haha.

Before my I start sleeping and all, (because I'm kinda bleary after the whole day), let me blog about my first ever VGL experience which was held in KL Convention's Centre, Plenary Hall today. My mom and I attended the afternoon session which started at 2.30 but we went there early just to be safe and I wanted to check out the booths (don't want to miss the merchandise!). And I have no idea why the smallest shirt looks like it's catered for oversized people.

Entered the hall at 2 because it was already opened by then and we were told that the cosplayers would enter the hall before the show starts. So here's the hall before the crowd came in, stage isn't that big, so is the hall itself. It was comfortable though, not too cold.

Cosplayers came in about 10-15 minutes before the concert commenced. Sadly, not many cosplayers turned up. My seat was far away so this is the closest picture that I can get. Surprise, 2 Final Fantasy characters! What's more surprising, if you look closely, you can see a girl who cosplayed as Hope from FFXIII! I'm gonna give her the credits for doing so, it's not a very wise choice, in fact, it's risky. First of all, FFXIII has been hated ever since its release and next, Hope isn't a very likeable character but nevertheless, I think she did well (a bold move indeed!) What's even sadder, the crowd looked confused when she introduced her character's name, only a handful few clapped, including yours truly. The guy on the far left emerged as the winner, it's obvious which game character he was cosplaying as; thus, the victory.

Parodies of video games and a bit of anime were shown to excite the crowd. They started off with a tribute to classical games. Throughout the whole song, there was a video montage of those good old games including 8-bit ones! The crowd was overwhelmed with nostalgia! Imagine those who grew up playing those games. Listening to the music being played live will surely evoke memories, be it good or bad.

Tommy Tollarico introduced himself and his group of performers, including our very own local National Symphony Orchestra and the conductor, Jack Wall if I'm not mistaken. Tommy talked a lot throughout the afternoon, gave many interesting or funny remarks. Many interactions took place. He talked about how many people out there think that video games are only for kids, video games music is nothing but just beeps here and there and how video games are blamed for violence and bad influence. When he was listing down these points, we boo-ed and there was one guy who said, "Kill them!", followed by laughter and agreement from the crowd. The irony.

After a pretty long tribute to classical games, the next song was Metal Gear Solid's main theme. A short clip of Hideo Kojima was shown before the orchestra team started playing the song. Bloody hell, I was so happy. Here's a video that I've recorded. Video quality ain't that good but audio-wise, it's tolerable. Check out the box, you'll appreciate that part if you've played MGS games.

I can't really remember the exact tracklist but if I'm not wrong, God of War's theme was played next. The female vocalist, Laura Intravia did a fantastic job! The audience was in awe, my mom kept praising her. Little did we know she was also a flutist, this was eventually revealed when she performed music from Zelda, heck, she even dressed like one. Tommy invited one of the audiences to go up to the stage to play Space Invaders while the musicians play the theme song. A 43 year old guy volunteered and he did a pretty good job, we were all cheering for him. His movements were tracked so he had to move from right to left while using some kind of controller to attack the fiends. It was amusing. He didn't win the main prize though but he got a goodie bag.

Not sure what exactly was the next song but it should be music from Legend of Zelda or Super Mario, followed by Shadow of Colossus and Megaman. It's quite difficult to remember the order of songs because I was utterly entranced. To be fair, I'd say the volume wasn't loud enough, there wasn't much "surround" effect that you'd expect to experience when you listen to this kind of music in a hall. It lacked the "oomph" so my mom and I were complaining throughout the first half of the concert. It was a waste because they played really well and the video footages complement the music.

What's great about this concert, it's actually educative! Tommy explained to us the origins of video games, the genius behind the whole concept, Ralph H. Baer! We were shown a black and white video of Ralph introducing the first ever Pong video game and after that, he was connected to us via Skype. I'm actually skeptical about that being live since videos like that could be timed but still it was pretty cool how we clapped and he told us to enjoy and waved at us.

We had a 20 minutes intermission for toilet breaks and my mom actually went to speak with one of the performers. She complained about the volume but the violinist said he couldn't do much about it because his task was only to play the violin, not controlling the overall sound so too bad but it's weird because the volume during the second half was increased and it had more "oomph" as compared to the first half. My mom was being smug about this, I'm not sure myself whether it was a coincidence or what. Nonetheless, it was more heart pumping during the second half, maybe it was also because Tommy joined in together with his electric guitar so the distortion or gain gave the extra kick.

When Jack asked whether there was any Disney fans, we immediately knew that the next song would be a piece from Kingdom Hearts! They played Hikari, I was literally fangirling throughout the whole song for several reasons. Yes, KH was an enjoyable game but Hikari has a very special place in my heart (for the record, the original song is performed and also composed by my one and only J-Goddess, Utada Hikaru). This rendition sounds really beautiful when performed live, I was close to tears.

Tommy also invited the winner of Guitar Hero competition that was held earlier on before the concert to play with him on stage. Van Halen's song was played. That little boy has leet skills on that fake guitar thing! I swear it's harder to play on that toy than a real guitar, (even Slash said so himself!) At first he was only required to play on Hard mode but he insisted on Expert to show off his skills, quite a cocky boy ey? But really, he was quite amazing except for the solo part, he screwed up a bit.

Other tracks include music from Sonic the Hedgehog, Warcraft/World of Warcraft, Halo. As if one MGS song wasn't enough to satiate the fans, we have Norihiko Hibino who specially flew in. He's the man behind Snake Eater which was used for Metal Gear Solid 3. One of my all time favourite video game songs, not to mention MGS3 was the first MGS game that made me a MGS fan that I am today. I kept replaying Snake Eater during my final terms break back in Form 1/2. Mr. Hibino performed Snake Eater on his saxaphone and oh boy, that rendition was really sexy and even more melodic than the original one. It reminded me so much of my secondary school years.

When Tommy said that the next song will be from a game by Square, it instantly hit us that it'll be a Final Fantasy song. Everyone was stoked and he kept asking us which Final Fantasy will it be. Everyone shouted their favourite FF and guess what, some shouted FFI, FFVI, (Terra's theme would be so epic), FFIX (this one has the most, I mean in quantity, great music out of all FF games) and most shouted FFVII (as expected-duh! fanboys never die). Guess which one they selected? As predicted, it was FFVII and before he could finish saying the composer's name, we shouted Nobuo Uematsu! Damn, that guy is REALLY an icon in the video games music industry. Hail Uematsu! (lol) and so my dream came true after waiting for ages, I was able to witness the profoundness of One Winged Angel live! Holy shit, I had goosebumps. Definitely an overrated song but it's just so sinfully addictive to listen to, especially the parts with choir.

When Tommy and others made their disappearance, we all kept cheering or an encore. Soon enough, they came out and was ready to deliver more yummy songs. Castlevania's song was played and it had that rock or a bit of metal edge to it, I really love it even though I haven't played this game throughout 19 years of my life. (yeah, yeah, I know how much I'm missing out) He also had us sing Mario's Overworld theme together, it was ridiculously stupid and cute.

Before the evening came to an end, music from Chrono Trigger and Chrono Cross was played and apparently, this was due to so much demand from fans all over the world. I'm glad they actually considered what the fans want because Chrono Cross has such beautiful music though I haven't finished the game, put it on hold when I received FFXIII, lol. It started out soft and tranquil withJack and Tommy on the acoustics, and suddenly the tempo took a turn. The ever-talented flutist and Norihiko joined in and so did the rest of the musicians. One word to describe it-- EPIC. Oh my God, it was easily one of the best piece delivered. All the instruments blended together so perfectly. Even my mom kept complimenting this piece after the concert was over.

The concert lasted about 2 hours 30 minutes long, I was beaming as I was walking out of the hall, in other words, I was ecstatic. Like I said earlier this month, it was like a dream come true for me, the opportunity to listen to video game soundtracks played live. Paying RM 153 was definitely worth it, you get such a different experience that you won't be able to get from attending usual concerts. Imagine all gamers who truly appreciates video games and the music gathered together in a hall, all with the same purpose, to just have fun and enjoy the music like how we've enjoyed the games. But I might be wrong because I saw people in their 40s - 50s as well, perhaps it'd be more precise to say that the same purpose is to have fun and enjoy the music! :D

Oh yes, video games music is just like any other good music. In fact, they're better than some shit that they play on radios these days. You can actually feel it when you listen to video game soundtracks. This applies to certain animes/dramas/movies soundtracks as well. Video games music has evolved to the point where players criticize or refuse to play certain games just because of the music composer. Fanboys and fangirls can be so faithful (lol). If you haven't listened to video games music before, I'd suggest you do so because you're really missing out a lot, I'm dead-serious.

The only drawback was the audio system, they could've done better. Do realize I'm not referring to the skills of the musicians, they played well and the co-ordination was great, the choir members especially. If only they raised the volume. I do not have much knowledge about acoustics and all, perhaps it's the material of the walls or the positioning of the speakers. Either way, if this was improved, it would've been flawless.

And if they were to drop by in the future, I'd relinquish RM 200++to get front seats and hopefully by then they will play music from not so popular games such as Persona and Max Payne. Someone actually shouted Persona when Tommy asked what song to play next. Besides that, I was actually hoping to see Martin Leung but too bad he wasn't there because I really dig his rendition of Tetris's theme. Oh well. :)

final fantasy XIII post-game thoughts

2010-04-04T16:07:00.005+08:00

Aww, I just finished Final Fantasy XIII and I'm feeling really emotional. Like every single damn thing on the face of Earth, there will always be haters. I do not fathom the reason behind people's hatred and if they hate it then why do they still play it?

Finished the game's main part at 57 hours ++ without touching most side quests unless required and without grinding. I have to admit I've enjoyed every single second spent in game, from the first time I inserted the disc until now. What a fantastic experience it has been.

My Hands by Leona Lewis is really suitable. Gotta admit I was skeptical when I first heard that her song will be used but now I've totally changed my mind. It fits the game alright and dear fans should stop being so adamant. Not all western things are bad, stop saying that the song sucks just because it's western and not japanese shit. It's okay that you think it's suck because you don't like the song but you think it sucks just because it's WESTERN? Sounds so silly, no? Yes, I listened to the japanese theme song as well, pretty good. I'd say both are good so please, stop the hate, it's sad. I feel bad for Leona Lewis because of the amount of fans bashing her.

So these are my thoughts after spending 2 weeks, trying to balance out my gaming and study time. Just gonna list down anything that comes to my mind. :

1. This game is totally worth it. Finish the game --complete sidequests for obtaining trophies and so on. High replay value. I'm considering playing it from the start again since it will be easier after learning various strategies and whatnot.

2. Battle system is fun fun fun! Flaws only make battles more challenging, the inflexibility of changing paradigms contribute to the difficulty factor as well. Easily the hardest FF I've ever played.

3. Great character design. From the kick ass ones to those annoying little brats, I love them. Despite how annoying Hope and Vanille were in the beginning of the game, they get better. In fact, annoying traits are the ones that make the characters memorable. Light of course is my favorite among all, followed by Fang. Best female protagonist I've ever come across. From her VA to her costume design, how she fights in battles, she's close to perfect. I like how females are so damn strong in this game.

Best 2 female characters in the game.

4. Grinding is pointless. Even if you max out skills and stats, dying is still easy if you don't strategize. Timing and strategizing have not been this important!

5. The game has TOWNZ. Stop saying the game has no towns. The bloody towns are everywhere and we're in TOWNZ most of the time. Just because you get attacked in towns, that does not tantamount to no TOWNZ because Nautilus is really a town. So called having no TOWNZ is relevant to the plot because players are considered as the baddies; thus being chased around in townz and no resting, please use common sense.

6. Eidolons are not entirely useless. True potential is revealed when used at the perfect moment in battles and I totally love how tough eidolons battles are because it wouldn't make any sense if we were to obtain them so easily. God, those battles make my blood rush! And the summon scenes are dead gorgeous, never skipped them. There's no reason to skip.

7. Vanille and Fang are lesbians. I officially declare them lesbians. Good friends don't go hugging each other that way. To be more precise, hug while resting your hand on one's breast. And lifting your friend's skirt to see a scar on the thigh? Really? Ending scene utterly convinced me that they are gay. Just because they didn't say "hey, we're lesbians" does not mean they're not lesbians. People can say whatever they want but this is my final stand. Glad SE is taking this approach. *coughs*

I told you they're gay.

8. Music is good. Not mind blowing but still good. I'm satisfied. Yes, I know how all FF fans miss Uematsu. That guy is a genius but please, life goes on, not like he's dead but... give chances to other composers alright? Hamauzu's works ain't that bad and he deserves praise. Overall, the game's soundtrack is really pleasant to the ears and there's actually variety in the ost per se. Though most tunes aren't as memorable as Uematsu's works, Hamauzu's music is still brilliant. It fits FFXIII's world. In fact it's wayyyyyy better than X-2's ost excluding Eternity Memory of Lightwavesblablasomething. The music is so pleasant that I'm actually looking around for the ost, I'm talking about the physical copy. Someone let me know if they see the ost in Malaysia? Because I remember seeing XII's ost sold in Rock Corner. Whether it's bootleg or not, that I do not know but hopefully it's fully original. Worst case scenario, I'll need to find someone to order it online for me.

9. Superb voice acting. Worth noting --- Vanille's voice is so irritating that I can still hear it ringing in my ears. It's as if she's having sex during most parts of the game. Fortunately I do not use her much. Light's VA did a great job, I saw the interview and she actually sounds so different. She managed to deliver a few memorable lines, "Worst birthday ever". All the voice artists managed to bring out the personalities of the characters, which is what makes the game so realistic. Luckily no stupid male voice acting this time. All the guys sound perfectly normal. As the game progresses, characters also have new lines during battles.

10. Game is pretty family-oriented. How Light goes all out to save her sister and her caring gestures, how Sazh wants to save his son, how Hope gets more mature and overcome his fears and troubles after his mom's death and opening up to his dad --- I really like the direction of this game. The only cannon pairing is Snow and Serah. No redundant lovey dovey scenes or stupid lines.

The only cannon pairing. I'm happy they didn't pair Light with Snow. Light and Snow already don't sound nice together, verbally.

11. 10/10 for overall eyecandy.

12. Light doesn't get too much spotlight till she overshadows the other characters. All of them get sufficient coverage. It's just that Light gets a bit more attention and more lines, that's about it. Very balanced I'd say.

For the 992828171231th time, Light does not look like Cloud and she's not a female version of Cloud, looks and personality-wise.

Okay, I cried a bit but it wasn't as bad (most probably because my mom was having her lunch beside me) as how I cried during Crisis Core's ending. FFXIII ending can be interpreted as both sad and joyful. Not gonna include spoilers but fortunately the fun-filled journey isn't exactly over, I'll still spend my time finishing sidequests and visiting newly unlocked areas and riding chocobos of course!

Photos from rpgsite.net

say bye

2010-03-29T01:23:00.001+08:00

Think you have pretty good eye-sight? Think again.
Spot me if you're able to. Free ~~hugs~~ for those who are able to. Rephrase, free hugs over my dead body.

Never knew my exasperated face actually looks like this.

Approximately 3 weeks left till foundation ends. Can't be any happier. Would you say I'm a pessimistic person or more of an optimistic person, judging from that statement itself? I'm not sure myself.

VGL happening for the first time in Malaysia!

2010-03-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

Presentations and assignments are finally all done for this final semester so for the time being, zest is in the air!

One of the reasons why I'm so happy and driven now is because VGL will be happening for the first time in Malaysia! (and all the while I thought of how I'll just die without witnessing the greatness of video games' music live because after all, this is Malaysia) It's certainly shocking that they've decided to include Malaysia in their tour. About time! I know there are many enthusiasts out there, those radical ones especially!

If you're still scratching your head and don't even have a single inkling about VGL, you're really uncool. Scratch that, I know how "many" gamers actually visit my blog or gamer friends. Was just kidding. Just because you do not play video games, it doesn't mean you should miss out this opportunity to attend this amazing concert!

Who the hell's performing? It's difficult to answer, there are many involved, from the choir to the electronic percussionists, solo performers, etc. Picture the ambience when you witness an orchestra live, then combine it with something electronic, jazzy or rock-ish once in a while. A perfect blend of various genres, making the music come alive right before your eyes. The synchronization coupled together with beautiful visuals such as the lights and video games clips are utterly engaging, to gamers or non-gamers. Anyone who enjoys symphonic tracks or put simply, soundtracks or instrumental stuff will definitely find this a worthwhile + enjoyable experience. If these reasons are still not convincing enough, I'm hoping the price of the tickets will--- from RM 83 to RM 253! ~~That's way fucking cheaper than your Super Junior concert which I think is totally crap.~~ Sorry, my fingers tend to move on their own sometimes.

I know people will still be hesitant (that is if my dear readers are actually bothered to read all these in the first place). Here are several videos that I got from YT, to exemplify the magnificence of VGL! Bear in mind all these are user-recorded; thus, the quality but they still rock.

One Winged Angel performed in Paris.

FF Medley on Piano performed in Taipei - the word beautiful explains it all.

How often do you get such cool people touring Malaysia anyway? This is totally incredulous. Someone slap me please, HARD. All these envisioning is making me more excited by each second. This is almost like a dream come true for me. Music that will be performed obviously includes those from well-known titles or classical ones. Good examples are Final Fantasy, Chrono Cross, Metal Gear Solid, Silent Hill, Mega Man, Warcraft, Super Mario, Kingdom Hearts, Zelda, Dongkey Kong, Castlevania, just to name a few that I know of.

If anyone's interested in joining, here are some important details of the concert.

Date : 17th April 2010

Time : First session at 2.30 PM , Second session at 8.30 PM

Venue : KL Convention Centre, Plenary Hall

For more information, here's the official website -- Video Games Live. Ticket pricing is available there, as well as ordering of course.

saving Lightning

2010-03-18T20:56:00.003+08:00

After about 1 week of waiting plus the everyday mailbox checking, the long awaited gem has finally arrived!

BEHOLD!

Is it me or the cover appears to be 'glossy'? This boxart is definitely better than the one with only the game title written on it. Yes I know they have some pretty artwork behind FF but Lightning's trademark pose is unbeatable!

The booklet/manual. Let's take a look the first 2 pages because they feature clear shots of Lightning. Yes I have conditional love for those characters but who gives a damn?

That smoking hot ~~BAMF~~ pose again! HAH! Okay okay, I'll try being fair this time and post a shot of the main cast.

Had the chance to play the game for one hour before dinner and damn, the game's such a fine piece of artwork. The graphics will definitely make you go like "holy shit!".

First impressions :

~~Lightning is hot.~~
The cast reminds me of FFX's Al-Bheds, is that how you spell that anyway?
Gorgeous setting, looks like there's a lot to be explored.
Once again, it feels very much like FFX, feels like home to be. FFX was the first FF game I played on the PS2 and this is the first FF for the PS3.
Enjoyable battle system. I really dislike the one that FFXII uses, it doesn't feel like FF to me. ATB turn based battles are back with deadlier moves! I can only control one character? I'm hoping it'll let me control the party later on.
Easy to listen to music, the battle theme is kinda stuck in my head already. Hopefully the rest of the soundtrack won't be as annoying or mundane as X-2's or XII.
Incredibly cool interface when the menu is brought up, you can see the characters' picture clearly unlike previous FF games.

See, now I'm even more demotivated to go to Leadership Camp which is happening tomorrow. Tch. Speaking of which, I haven't even packed! Alright alright, it's only 3 days long then I'll be able to spend most of my time playing this. *sighs* after all, FFXIII is my raison d'etre for purchasing the Playstation 3.

Take note that yours faithfully will be blogging more often about FFXIII from today onwards. :)

Till then I'll be so called camping in Gopeng, Perak.
And I'm starting to think that phones which are too smart is quite a challenge to use.

geek post

2010-03-15T17:59:00.002+08:00

Last weekend was just gone like that. Felt as if it wasn't that laborious but in actual fact it was quite laborious considering how I already got the 5% participation marks for Stats and how I've already finished doing my part for Business research paper. There's only Psychology left for now, I'm pretty confident that I can finish it by tonight, not so sure about the slides though. Then there's the presentation this Thursday and Quiz 2 for Business as well. As if that's not enough to occupy me, there's so called leadership camp on friday till sunday. Very short indeed but there, have you noticed that another weekend has been taken away from me? Tch, I just can't help thinking how much better it would be if the camp was held during semester breaks. Every student can just go there have fun without worries.

Mom is finally back and someone's starting to act weird again. I wonder why, very much perplexed.

During Psychology class today, Ms. Selena was talking about Sigmund Freud and his theories, the structural theory especially. Images of Evangelion kept popping into my mind. Freud, Evangelion, Freud, Evangelion, yes, that anime Evangelion. Clearly Evangelion was created with a lot of Freudian theories in mind, which makes me wanna rewatch the whole series again just to comprehend more about ego, super-ego and id. See how watching animes can be so beneficial at times? It's a matter of picking the right anime and not some shitty one. Shitty ones are just a waste of time. While I was searching for Eva stuff the other day, I came across a Freudian Eva icon, the artist must have been reading Psychology materials.

This is actually pretty cool.

.Freud
Photo from BBC

Eva
Photo from tvtropes.org

Freud. Again.

Eva. Again.
Photo from Retsgip's Anime Blog

Anyways, my point is, just little things like this can brighten up my day. Little things as in seeing how my interests pertain to serious issues or how they're interrelated. I don't sound like I make sense. Never mind, after all, I can be such a geek at times.

the evangelion impact

2010-03-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

Photo from blog.rage.com.my

I am utterly ecstatic after watching Evangelion 2.0 at Cathay earlier this evening! Due to transportation problems, I had to go there about 1 hour before the movie starts so you can picture how mundane it was for me. Fortunately the particular hall was opened early. Early by 10 minutes if I'm not wrong. Surprisingly I wasn't the earliest one. A few hardcore EVA fans were already inside, sitting in the dark. There were only stationary ads with annoying radio tunes being played. Soon, the crowd came. Mostly teenage guys. There were very few girls. There were also mid age guys. To my surprise, there was this family with a few kids. Very young kids, most probably around 5. Poor kids, I hope they grasped the movie and were able to tolerate the violence. For the record, I sat between 2 late 20s/early 30s guys. Both came alone and of course I went alone as well. Speak of the Eva spirit!

The vexatious ads and previews were distressing. Impatience was obvious and you can't blame us. It has been how many months since the release of Evangelion 2.0 and it took dog years for it to reach our shores but I'm not gonna complain. Honestly, I feel so blessed that this whole thing is actually taking place. To watch Evangelion 2.0 on such a huge screen with brilliant sound effects!

It was virtually 2 hours long but it felt like nothing. The battle scenes especially were engaging. There were changes in the storyline as compared to the original series. So far I think it's okay. It was very intriguing to see how they replaced Suzuhara with Asuka during the scene where Shinji was compelled to terminate Unit 03. I prefer the original scene more though because it was more emotional, I can still recall how much I cringed on the night when I watched that episode. Amazing like hell. Ayanami Rei has more emotions. Heck, there's even an obvious love triangle between Asuka, Shinji and Rei which I find to be pretty odd. It seemed as if it's too fast for that considering the facts that Asuka actually loathes Shinji and Rei is too robotic and too in love with Shinji's father instead of Shinji himself. ~~Sick~~.

Since it's a Rebuild, the CG effects are much better. Even though the art style seems a bit outdated for today's anime, their hairstyle especially, I still think it was beautifully done/retouched. Plentiful additional scenes make it easier for Eva fans to understand the enigma of Evangelion but if someone were to just walk in watch it, there's ahuge possibility that they'll start getting bored, worse, deride the anime. The soundtrack is truly superb. Love the classic songs and incongruous battle themes. The instrumental version of Thanatos really enhanced the impacts of the fights. Not to exaggerate but I had goosebumps all over during a few scenes, heh, "the evangelion impact".

When the movie ended, most viewers left except for me, 2 guys and another group of teenage boys behind me. I guess we're the hardcore ones. Waited for the credits to finish rolling. I'm not gonna lament about the credits because that is the part where Beautiful World by ~~the goddess~~Utada Hikaru plays. I love both the original and the acoustic rendition of this song. I have no inkling whether they stayed for the ending song or for the preview of Evangelion 3.0 but I reckon it's the latter. The staff must be exasperated, they switched on the lights and our asses were still glued to the chairs waiting for the preview. Haha!

My notion is that the whole Rebuild of Evangelion thing is mostly fanservice but it's okay since Eva geeks are incredibly loyal and fucking enthusiastic so for sure lots of profits will be generated in Japan. As for little countries like Malaysia, it's a blessing that we have the opportunity to watch this. Once again, millions of thank you, hugs and kisses to the fans who petitioned so hard for this to happen.

I'm so extremely delighted today because of this. :D

And I'm also glad I didn't download the CAM version of this, else it would've spoiled the fun and excitement.

ramenbox's little self indulgence

2010-03-06T20:02:00.000+08:00

Friday has been the happiest day of 2010. 2 amazing events took place and these moments are really going into my "Best Moments of 2010" list. Let's start off with the minor one. Behold, the movie, Rebuild of Evangelion 2.0 : You Can (Not) Advance is finally being screened in Malaysia! At last! I remember I came across news on how Facebook Evangelion fans petitioned for this. Great job to those ardent fans out there. Too bad I'm an inactive FB-er, else I could have contributed a bit. I missed the first one which was back in 2008 but I'm definitely missing this! Exclusively shown in Cathay or TGV Sunway. The ads in the newspapers are mere black and white, pretty pathetic, but who gives a damn? I've already bought my ticket in advance and they actually claimed how you can not advance. The irony. Heh. Can't wait for tomorrow evening to come.

The next big but not so big thing, the time I spent drooling over a PS3 has come to an end because yours truly has finally purchased one for herself. Once again, I'd like to stress how money makes the world goes round. Surveyed the prices in OneU but in the end decided to buy it from Sony Style, The Curve. I'm gratified with my final decision because it came with freebies, not to mention the free Milo and warm service from one of thoseguys there. It was a bit difficult to ask about the availability of certain games though because the guy isn't a gamer. Perhaps they should start assigning staff to appropriate sales sections. Nevertheless he was being as helpful as possible.

Days of frequent visits to the Sony shop just to caress the PS3 are over.

Freebies - A not-so-stylish oversized windbreaker. I wanted a black but apparently there's no black. And a Sony multi-reader.

My first ever original video games. Not new releases but hey, quality matters and no one gets bored of Solid Snake.

Personally I feel that it was a good bargain. At least the freebies are both practical things. In fact, the windbreaker is currently with my mom who has just left for Australia. Hopefully a free windbreaker will be enough for the mild weather. Wanted to get GTAIV instead of MGS4 but in the end went ahead and bought MGS4 because it's a PS3-must-get. Elder Scrolls was also reasonable because it includes the expansion pack together with the initial one. How lovely. can things get? It was difficult to choose my first few games but I settled with these both because 1. Dragon Age is still quite expensive for the time being. 2. Final Fantasy XIII Eng Version isn't out yet so these will be more than enough to keep me busy until mid March.

Yes, it's not the hot version with Lightning's super sexy face on it. I guess it's okay but truth be told, I still dream of that limited edition. *sigh* be grateful with what you have, Crystal. :)

For my mom who must be checking in now, wishing her a safe and wonderful journey. Will be missing her for one week. Who wants to cook for me this week?

to brush or not to?

2010-03-02T22:45:00.002+08:00

Hunting wallpapers can be addictive. This addiction kicks in one month once or so. It can be quite fatal. Certain wallpapers are such eyecandies that they cause me to hyperventilate. especially those widescreen ones. See how deadly pretty looking things can be. As I'm doing this, my stomach's craving for Chilli Pan Mee that I had for dinner last night. They're this good. Photo doesn't show chilli because I haven't put them in yet but the egg really brings out the taste of this simple dish. I swear it's the best pan mee I ever had in my whole life. If any guy is reading this, please tell me how true is this sentece-- guys don't really eat pan mee, it's a female thing. The statement does sound stupid but no, it wasn't me who made that claim. It's from an elderly man. Once again, I'm just being curious.

Will be visiting the mad dentist tomorrow. To be fair, I haven't met her before but I heard she's quite gentle. Hopefully she really is, had a terrible experience with a female dentist during pre-spm week. She was using brute force on my teeth! I don't know the qualification system works. Geez. Another curious question, do you brush your teeth before visiting the dentist? Or perhaps make sure your teeth is clean?

so my felicity

2010-03-01T00:14:00.002+08:00

Productive would be the best word to describe last week. Though it was a "mid-terms week", it seemed like I had more time for myself and others because it was a "no classes week" as usual. How I wish they implemented something like that back in Secondary. It actually kind of helps to reduce cramming. At least students get sufficient time SLEEP and EAT.

Went back to Ipoh for 2 days 1 night. Met up with Ken-Ann and Foong Vai for a movie. From Paris With Love is quite a marvelous movie but the story can be a little controversial, no? It was fun but I still wanna watch Book of Eli! Didn't have the chance to meet up with Leong though and it's mainly her fault. Btw, could someone explain to me why sex is brought up whenever we sit down and converse? Not like I'm complaining but I'm just curious!

So I've received the letter of so called invitation to attend the Leadership Camp on the 19th of March. Screw it! How insanely mundane! Why? Because I have no interest in camps, especially LEADERSHIP CAMPS. Heck, a musical camp would be so much better. It never gets better because guess what, it'll be held in Gopeng, Perak. Of all places, they'll be sending me back to Perak. Why not the Malacca one!? In fact, the Malacca one is considered a "luxurious camp" whereas the Perak one is known as the "adventurous camp". Whole load of bull. Yes, I know I'm being negative about a small little issue but this camp will actually take away my precious weekend. Geez. Someone please give me the motivation to attend the bloody camp. I'm tempted to act stupid and just run away on Friday even though it's a compulsory. Somehow I'm not really convinced that they will snatch my Foundation cert away from me at the end of this semester if I were absent during the camp. It's really mean to force people to attend something that they wouldn't enjoy. Scums...

On a brighter note, the ~~hottest chick in FF's history,~~ Final Fantasy XIII English version will be hitting the stores in approximately 10 days from today. A more exact date, March 9th! I'm so TRULY FUCKING STOKED. I've pre-ordered it and I hope it won't be long for them to send my copy and let's pray that it'll arrive safely. I'm having doubts as it's my first time purchasing a video game online. Let's be frank, I've never purchased anything online before.

Yes, I'm so fucking bias, Lightning all the way, baby! I don't really give a damn about the other characters. That's just for the time being. The bond shall be formed when I get my hands on this game! And I just noticed how Lightning can be pretty androgynous from certain angles. Nevertheless, that's quite at turn on. Could someone remind me she's made of pixels?

Photos from Gamespot

my ashtray heart

2010-02-20T22:32:00.002+08:00

Photo from www.budiey.com

Get your tickets here!

The picture above pretty much sums it all up. Anyone's interested? I doubt so but I'm just doing this because I'm desperate for people to accompany me. I have a feeling it might be filled with many Malay guys, no, I'm not trying to be racist. Drop me a msg if you're interested. Judging from the ticket price, it's pretty reasonable and I'm actually very surprised that they decided to drop by Malaysia. Of all places!? I mean, oh come on, radio doesn't even play their songs. MTV does play their new stuff like Ashtray Heart. I'm not sure whether they've played their older hits before but is it me or the band isn't really famous in Malaysia? There's hardly any promotion except for the small little posters in Rock Corner.

Have not been a fan of them for long but the music that they make are pretty good, the lyrics especially can be quite provocative. Molko's quite an interesting person, same applies to the other band members. If you like androgynous looking guys with lots of eyeliner, this band is highly recommended. And also if you like provocative lyrics, like what I just mentioned, listen to them. Curiosity is the driving force here, I really want to see how well they perform live.

a hefty one

2010-02-17T18:17:00.000+08:00

I just got home from Ipoh and I must admit that this Chinese New Year break was a very eventful one. It's not fully negative nor positive Negativity is balanced out by the lucrative business that unmarried people like me conduct. Even though some have migrated or passed on, this year's business is better. They're not as thrifty as I thought. Good karma for people like that. Even the hairstylist gave me an ang pao. Not to sound naive or whatsoever, it's merely fair to be surrounded by the bad and the good. Life's only balanced like that. More love, care and gratitude towards ones who are genuinely kind. As for those whose hearts who have been taken away (shit, I sound as if I've been playing too much Kingdom Hearts, forgive me, I'm listening to KH Piano Collections as I type this entry), I have no words for these people because I'm not completely perfect myself but at least not as terrible as some people can be.

Oh yes I was talking about good people. Although the staff from Cafe Breeze or Breeze Cafe, whatever the name is, I can't really recall, big thanks to them for helping out that night. Wouldn't be able to make home without their help.

Like what I plurked just a few minutes ago, I'd like to emphasize again, certain things just can't be undone and once you've pushed your limit too far, that's it. That's bye bye. I won't hope someone dies but I hope one of this days, karma will still come back and bite you in the ass because seriously, you deserve it. I think she's already anaesthesized, which is a good thing.

air conditioner does wonders

2010-02-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

Someone please remind me that Chinese New Year is already here because I just can't feel it. In spite I'll be getting a 2 days break coupled together with another extra 2 days because of my lovely Statistics lecturer, I'm not excited or happy about it. There's just no Chinese New Year spirit in me or perhaps there is one waiting to be awoken? Either way, I'm lacking enthusiasm. There must be something profoundly amiss with me these days. Is it the weather? Seriously, tell me why is it always incredulously hot when Chinese New Year comes? It's not even funny. There are days when it's so bloody hot that I'm about to strip naked and soak myself in a tub of ice, just like how those people in soap operas. Too bad for me, I do not have a tub and that immense supply of ice. To make things worse, there's mid terms right after Chinese New Year. First paper will be on Saturday and they haven't released the schedule for the exam yet. Well done, very efficient of you people. Now this makes it difficult for students to prioritize their subjects. As I'm typing this, IHMC isn't accessible. Oh wait, it is accessible but they haven't uploaded the schedule.

Just how nice it will be if I can spend Chinese New Year in dormancy. Do I sound a tad negative? Oh sorry, my mood shifts can be quite scary when the weather sucks. It affects the whole me. Let's just hope that my perspectives will change when I get back to Ipoh, receive a lot of ~~money~~ ang paos, and meet my friends. Speaking of ang paos, I think people are getting more parsimonious. Could that be actually the real reason I no longer look forward to Chinese New Year as much as I used to?

Another thing that I cannot look forward to anymore-- bonding over joysticks. Before my secondary years when my cousins and I weren't that mature yet, we used to play wrestling or fighting games and Tony Hawk's on the PSX. Those were the days where we would go for endless matches of Tony Hawk's just to see who can get the higher score. And also the days where there was only one PC in my room. Each one of us would compromise, play a few rounds of CS with the bots while others wait patiently behind the current player. I still remember, before the existence of smooth graphics, we took turns playing old school games like Lost Vikings, Wolfenstein, Aladin and Prince of Persia. As an introvert, I am not really good at socializing with those who aren't around me for long aka my cousins who are from KL except for one that I've played a lot with since I was toddler. For others, there weren't many topics of interests but we could actually sit down and talk for long if there were gaming sessions. This is how technology or to be more precise, gaming consoles are capable of fostering relationships.

Photo from abandonia.com

Photo from Piano Forte

Presently, these kind of events do not take place anymore. How unfortunate. Never mind that, I'm hoping for a great time when I get back to Ipoh. Although I dread going back to the house, cleaning it and sleeping in a dusty environment, I'm trying to be as optimistic as possible. Happy Chinese New Year people!

By the time I get back from Ipoh, Utada's In the Flesh tour will be over. How ridiculously depressing for fans who couldn't make it. The venues weren't even beyond reach if I were an working person. London, NYC, Chicago. *inserts sad smiley* I pray that she'll tour again in a few years' time when I have the sufficient funds to travel overseas just too see her in person.

Photo from Utada.com

a tribute to the deceased j-rock rotation sites

2010-02-05T16:38:00.001+08:00

If anyone were to look at me and guess what kind of music I listen to? The answer that they'll most likely give will be Chinese pop. Blame it on the I-AM-A-CHINESE glued right on my face. That's beside the point. Today I'll be reminiscing about the existence of J-Music rotation sites or to be more precise, J-Rock rotation sites.

I remember how I stumbled upon these sites during Form 1 (2004). At that time I knew nothing about Visual Kei, X-Japan, or Luna Sea. All these were like aliens to me. If you do not know what the heck is rotation sites, it's a website whereby the webmaster/mistress will upload a couple of mp3 songs together with reviews, fangirling/fanboying comments, whole lot of unnecessary bitching and photos. These sites were sprouting like mushrooms until late 2007 if I'm not wrong, then most of the sites started to die. Why? And an hour ago while I was just googling J-rock rotation sites for fun, all results which came out are dead sites. Not on hiatus, they're literally dead, abandoned. People just do not have the motivation or enthusiasm to maintain such sites anymore. Why? I reckon it's because of how shitty the J-rock industry is getting, that might be wrong. I'd be jubilant if someone could name me some 2009 - 2010 J-rock tracks which really kick ass. And also, what's with most bands trying to sound like Dir en grey? It's so annoying to listen to Kyo wannabes. There's not much variety anymore these days.

Looking back, most J-rockers should really thank these sites for helping them to promote their music. It is because of these sites that their music is able to reach worldwide without any barriers. It is because of these sites that there are so many fugly VK cosplayers or J-rock wannabes hanging out in Sg. Wang. Okay, I didn't mean the last part but it is partly true.

If I were ever given the opportunity to meet the webmasters/mistresses of those J-rock rotation sites that I were faithful to, I'd thank apiece of them from the bottom of my heart because the music that they've shared have totally brought drastic changes to my life and shaped the person I am today.

Dir en grey - all the masochistic, sadistic, angry, melancholic tunes helped me to get through personal problems especially during form 3-4. Machiavellism kicked ass even though Kyo's engrish sounds so incredibly hilarious and stupid. China was where I listened to most of their music because back then MP3 players could only fit 128 mb. Songs like Filth, Mushi, and Zakuro bring back lots of memories. This band reminds me of Audrey, don't ask me why. HAHA.

L'Arc~en~Ciel - One of my all time loved bands. Jojoushi, the first song I downloaded from the rotation sites helped me to stay awake during my revision for mid term. Not to mention how much this Ken's melodic solos have motivated me to pick up guitar. Was listening to their songs 24/7 during form 2. And I'm also proud to say that my first original CD is their album, SMILE. It's the one and only Japanese release album that I own. Others are all "for sale out of Japan", needless to say, all those suck ass. The booklets are so thin and the quality is prominently inferior to the Japanese release ones. Okay, besides that, why is that the current Hyde's voice sounds like an old man talking garbage? Too much smoking?

Gazette - I've always felt a strong bond or attachment between this band and I. This is most probably due to the fact that I started listening to their music before they reached their current status. They've grown so much and at the same time I've grown too. It feels like we're growing at the same rate, the feeling is inexplicable. They don't make spectacular music but there's just something that about their music which piques my interest, followed by addiction. Ruki's vocals are just normal, not even close to impressive. Aoi's and Uruha's guitar skills are no where to close to real guitar virtuosos. Reita's nose band annoys me and Kai, uh well, Kai's drums is good so no complaints. I can't remember whether Reila or Cockroach were the first songs that I listened to but who cares, both of these are on the same level of greatness. I sold my entire soul to them after listening to Cassis and the rest of the album, Nil.

There are of course other great songs that made me recall how much I enjoy stealing music from those MP3 rotation sites. It's quite a long list but now there's no more sites like these, it's kind of sad. Could someone explain to me why these sites have vanished? If J-rock is dying, perhaps people should start making RUSSIAN ROCK/METAL MP3 ROTATION SITEs. Frankly, I'd love that because I do not have an inkling where to get high quality russian rock songs.

of fats and pee

2010-01-31T23:59:00.003+08:00

Just got home from Genting. That was pretty random, it never occurred to me that Michiko would wanna drive to Genting. It was so damn abrupt but I guess she likes to do stuff like that. She could've at least took the courtesy to tell me that we'll be going there then I wouldn't have wore shorts and flip flops.

Since she took the wrong direction, she had to ask the people at the Tol for a bit of guidance. Asked 3 girls in total and the first girl actually gave wrong directions; thus, it was confusing! I was like, damn, hitherto we're just gonna end up driving all the way back to Ipoh. The last 2 girls were of better aid but still she had to pay unnecessarily in order to u-turn, you get the idea. We took the old road, it felt as if it was taking centuries for us to reach there because both of us wanted to pee and we were famished. Lucky for her she has cigarettes. On the other hand, I had nothing except for hunger.

I think I nearly died in the car park, it was freezing cold and I was pale as fuck. I looked creepy in the mirror, I think that was mainly due to my hunger. Crystal eats to live, not lives to eat. Surveyed the area to see which shop will be great for dinner. Fast food outlets were obviously excluded from the list. In the end, dined at some Hainan restaurant. Was too hungry to look at the name. Something sheepish happened while we were waiting to be seated, I cut the queue because hunger took over my conscience, really. Took me awhile to realize that I actually cut the queue when Michiko gave me a whatthefuckareyoudoing look. For real, I didn't notice the sign saying "Wait to be seated".

Took her 5 minutes to handle the pepper. Speak of great skills.

Happily having my Traditional Mutton Stew. Apparently, I ate quite fast.

Took a stroll outside after dinner then came back to PJ. Talked a lot about past issues. In short,
had fun.

Dad asked me where I went and I lied, "One U". He responded with an eww face and said, "Boooorrrrinngggg". Have you seen people who actually enjoys bursting people's bubbles so much? Yup, I love being boring and I'd rather you scoff at me because you would've killed me if I told you the truth. He got pwned without knowing it and in a way, that's kind of hilarious. Hah!

what's the matter with you? blue eyes

2010-01-29T14:17:00.008+08:00

Photo from U3MUSIC INC.

Just thought these autographed balls by Utada are pretty cool. No, I'm not fangirling. Please scrutinize the drawings on the balls. Bears voicing Gay rights. Apparently, her bear or otherwise known as Kuma is a gay bear who's only into male bears. Okay fine, maybe I was fangirling a bit after getting to know that one of my idols is so supportive of the LGBT community. Another reason why I love Utada Hikaru.

Time for something serious.

Okay, I know this shot ain't as epic as her singing but truth be told, I have better shots of her singing along to Akon's music. After contemplating, I decided not to post those beautiful shots because I'm a really good friend. Seriously, this girl knows practically each song on Akon's album. Scary and it's even scarier when there's abrupt screaming/cursing in the middle of the song. After yesterday's experience, I realized that most of my friends are pretty aggressive when it comes to driving. Hazardous, very. Ironically, I find them funny.

Monday's a holiday. About time for some repose--which reminds me I haven't started on the Dream Analysis. As much as I'd like to use Freud's theories, they just don't make sense. Oh, Freud, where art thou? There's so much I'd like to ask him in person but that's merely impossible.

Evangelion Afterthoughts

2010-01-26T23:23:00.000+08:00

Years ago before I got into anime, I've always been curious about this particular character (the chick with short blue hair ) that I saw everywhere in town. This ubiquitous character left me wondering about her importance. Why is her action figure available in every single anime shop? When I first started using the net during the 90-s, I can still recall how often images of this character or the name "Neon Genesis Evangelion" appear in my search results. It IS rather odd because I was actually searching about something else. It is inevitable, even most forumers would use characters from Evangelion as their avatars / signatures.

Fast forward to 2004. The advent of my newly found addiction. Finally I discovered the "mystery" behind the ever popular Evangelion. Since it's quite an old anime (released in 1995), I had no interests in watching it. It was till 2009 when I downloaded it. The whole file is 10 gb and I managed to download all 26 episodes + 3 movies in less than 24 hours, via torrent of course. Impressive. Then I realize, this series must have really really hardcore fans who are willing to seed the files at such rate. This speed is considered quite good for Malaysia's broadband. Well, I finally watched the whole series together with its movies. In fact, I just finished End of Evangelion about 30 minutes ago.

Never in my life have I cringed so much just from watching an anime. I'm serious, Never. I was so ludicrously overwhelmed by what this anime has to offer. At first glance it looks like some stupid mech anime, which I don't really dig but I still ended up watching it just to find out for myself why the strong fanbase? After watching it, no doubt it is truly an anime which has successfully revolutionized the anime industry. I can now see where most animes draw their ideas from. It's so obvious. Since the animes that I've watched are those made after 2000, I have to say that after I watched Evangelion, other animes that I've previously watched are all child's play. I kid you not. It utterly changed my perspectives.

WHY? It's deep and it's serious and it's dark and I can go on and on about why this anime is such a masterpiece. The characters are all designed well, physically and personality wise. The show does not just touch the characters on the surface, there's a lot of character development/exploration going on. The main thing, its storyline causes viewers to keep analyzing and think think think. It's not a stupid child cartoon where the line between good and bad is clearly drawn. Difficulty in comprehending its ending is what virtually every single viewer faced out there. Despite its dino-age release date, there are still active forums on the net where users discuss the ending. Oh, and I was saying, it's not some crappy mech anime. In fact, it's not really mech. There's a whole lot more to the anime. In addition to all the greatness, there's a great deal of psychological factors involved which might be disturbing. The voice acting enhances the overall experience and impact of the anime. There were many scenes that made me cringed like crazy because of the VA.

I don't wanna sound like I'm fangirling because I'm not but I'm merely stating the fact that it's brilliant. Evangelion is a bona fide anime and I think every single person who loves anime should watch it, that is if you haven't. Or maybe if you think anime is childish, watch Evangelion, it's an enigma. I believe most people out there only watch stuff like Naruto or Bleach and other newer animes but seriously, watch Evangelion. NGE is vehement on so many levels.

too much candy is gonna rot your soul

2010-01-24T10:46:00.000+08:00

I know I made an oath to update this blog as frequent as possible but it has been quite a challenge to do so because of the things that I had to attend to during the past 6 days or maybe I just do not have the motivation to blog as frequent as my friends do. I've always wondered where do they draw their inspiration or motivation from? Or perhaps I'm just too lazy? There are many possibilities but someone mentioned last week that I'm too "keras" to blog about everything which happens in my life. She did not clearly define what she meant by "keras". I'd take the word literally. There is some truth in what she said. I do not blog every single thing which happens in my life, especially the ones which are too solemn or depressing to be mentioned here. Who would want to read something which emits negative vibes? And which is why sometimes I'd rather not update. I have to be in certain moods to update my blog or else there will be full of "fucks" in my blog.

Like I said, this week has been quite a hectic one for me and most probably it's because of the stupid replacement classes that we had today so that we do not have to go for classes during Chinese New Year. The day was long as I was compelled to follow my parents to attend my supposedly Godfather's son's wedding. Complicated. To make it simpler my long distant cousin brother's wedding. The speeches weren't as moving as compared to the wedding dinner which I attended last week. Personally, I think this is due to his really young age. He's only in his early 20s. However, I got really excited when one of their slide shows utilize Mika's song as the BGM, Lollipop. I believe my parents rolled their eyes when I did a fangirl squeal. And of course my dad never misses the chance to insult my interests. He said, "Your Mika sounds like some character from Sesame Street".

The music video for Lollipop. A nicely animated video. It's extremely colorful, which makes up for the dark lyrics. Heck, the song is so upbeat, listeners would be fooled into thinking that it's a happy happy song.

Because of my packed activities these past 6 days, I had no trouble sleeping at all. In fact, the lethargy accumulated by the end of the day made me slept around 12.45, the latest. I'm pretty content with current sleeping patterns. Months back, I had trouble when it comes to sleeping. Used to toss and turn for about 1 hour ++ before I could really fall asleep and when I did, I'll wake up a few times throughout the whole night/morning.

Ever since I've started taking Psychology, things which happen around me have made me perceive them in different ways and also I think it's pretty coincidental that many materials that I've started watching or reading are very Psychological. Even the fan fictions that I read are psychological, it had me googling on the net about the theories - Oedipus Complex, Electra Complex and also a few other theories which are not so psychological. Coincidentally, the anime that I've been watching a lot lately, Neon Genesis Evangelion attributes to a few Psychology theories. Very intriguing. It's either coincidences or it is because I've developed an awareness to things like these. To make things better, I'm kinda required to keep a dream journal because we're currently studying about dreams. I have to go and type my first entry. now. Had a really funny dream last night starring my friend, Leong Qianyun. Not gonna go into details. *lol*

Anyways, it's a very nice Sunday today. Finally a day off and hopefully I'm permitted to stay at home because there's a whole load of things to be done at home. Have a great weekend everyone, they're rare! :D

jealousy

2010-01-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

As I was daydreaming while listening to my phone during my trip back from the wedding dinner, it suddenly dawned on me that I do get jealous of my relatives. I actually mentioned that I do not get jealous of my relatives on my Plurk and also bullshitted about how sinful it is to be jealous of your own family members but it's fully acceptable and comprehensible to be jealous of your friends or other members of the society. I know it doesn't make sense but oh well, I deliberately came up with it, just for fun. Back to being jealous of my relatives.

During dinner, I sat beside this guy cousin of mine. Not really close to him because he's from my dad's side but so far he's the one that I talk to the most and that's mainly because of our music interests. Cool guy. To be more precise, a metalhead who doesn't really look like one and he plays the guitar. He attended the dinner with his sister. Both are quite old, not as in old looking, I mean older than me. They're in their late 20-s. Throughout the dinner, both talked a lot. From music and I mean really quality music talks. Don't ask me to define what are quality music talks. Anyway, that's not the main point. And they kept getting food for each other. What I'm trying to say is, I saw many caring gestures from both of them and it kinda moved me.

Perhaps I'm getting old myself. I'm not sure but I've always been envious of people who have siblings who care for them. This is not the first time I'm envious of such people and also it won't be the last. And yes, I'm really jealous of my friends who have really nice siblings, who fetch them here and there and have heart to heart chats with them. You people know who you are.

There are many things that we can be jealous of but practically most of these things that are actually attainable if we put more effort into it. For instance, wealth, skills (which eventually become talent), fame, good looks, etc. However there are also things which are impossible to be obtained at certain stages in life, no matter how hard you try. In this case, I'm referring to siblings. To be more clear, I'm not jealous just because there's someone there to get food for you, to talk to you or to fetch you around. It's because there's much more to that when you actually have a sibling. The feeling is overall different and it also changes your perspective, as well as your personality if you have one. Sharing is definitely something one will learn when he or she has siblings. I don't think I'm great at sharing, in fact I hate sharing. To be frank, I really abhor sharing especially when it comes to certain things. Let's not go into that.

I tend to digress a lot, it's difficult not to. Anyways, my message to anyone who reads this is, be thankful and ~~appreciatibe~~, sorry, I mean, appreciative that you've been blessed with such wonderful siblings - that is if you do have siblings. If they are really obnoxious, in lieu of hating them, think of it as free training to cultivate patience and tolerance. As for individuals out there who do not have siblings (like me), too bad for us, just gotta live with it.

Source : http://www.motivatedphotos.com/?id=43324

Happy Birthday to Mom

2010-01-12T17:37:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was mom's birthday. Went to Red Box to celebrate because she enjoys karaoke sessions a lot and also she loves eating. Thank God she's not really obese because of the amount of food she consumes. The food there is just average. not many choices but plentiful oysters and other seafood as well such as raw tuna, baked crabs, shrimps and dory fishes. Pasta is quite bland, creamy but lacks salt. Most cakes served are not of quality ones except for the cheese tarts and orange chocolate cake which I find really nice because the sweetness doesn't turn people into diabetic patients.

This photo is made of win.

And for a more normal looking one.

Sound quality there ain't that impressive. They have problems with lowering the key of most songs and I hate the fact they have so many MTV videos instead of proper karaoke videos. It's annoying. Hit songs which are not that new such as Lips of an Angel, I Hate Everything About You and Rain do not have karaoke videos. That sucks because they were released a year ago or even longer than that. Personally I think Karaoke places are too busy filling their lists of karaoke videos with pop, rnb or hip hop videos. I can't comprehend why they hardly take the initiative to offer more rock videos. This applies to their selection of J-Music as well. Karaoke videos for J-Pop are everywhere but not J-Rock. There's Luna Sea and the legendary X-Japan but no lyrics and if there were, there's no romanized lyrics. Like most Malaysians can read kanji or whatever.

It's funny to go karaoke with my parents because they tend to sing really new songs. For instance my dad sang songs by Creed, Hinder and Daughtry. On the other hand, my mom likes to sing songs by Sean Kingston. Oh wait, let me rephrase, she jumps into almost any song. Occasionally Taylor Swift.

Anyways, I think she had a great time. Was smiling all the way through. Happy to see that.

top 10 reasons I like to have a home gym

2010-01-08T17:14:00.000+08:00

Few years back, I've already realized that that public gyms can be really annoying. Wait, to be more precise, it's mainly caused by the amount of people who workout there. I won't generalize and it is definitely unfair to say that everyone who goes to public gyms are such jerks because that's wrong, I wasn't. *smirks* As if it's not horrible enough, I've ascertained that apartment gyms are bad too. Oops, let me correct myself again, it is the people who kills the fun. Not all, but many.

10. Sound pollution. Ah yes, the ubiquitous sound pollution! Most gyms do have music being played. It's loud enough. Therefore, I don't think it's necessary for people to take out their phones and play their music through loudspeaker. Are you nuts? Your music vs. gym music is causing lots of pollution. It sounds disgusting. It's not your house. Get yourself headphones if you think gym's music sucks.

9. Earthquakes. Yes, earthquakes do occur in gyms. For some reason, people just love throwing the weights to the ground after they finish doing their reps. For what? So that everyone will pause and look at you? Throwing actually means not doing the last rep in the correct form/manner. And it really causes earsore.

8. People who keep bugging you. Such pests! In other words, they strike a convo while you're giving 100% attention to your weights or whatsoever. Hello, I'm busy here, could we talk later?

7. Men who try to look really professional by giving advice incessantly. Seriously, is this my body or your body? Don't tell a person his or her limit. Just because someone looks small or short or whatever, it doesn't mean that you have to warn him or her to not push the limits. It's all about pushing yourself further and improving. Moreover, you don't even have the certificate as a professional trainer!

6. Disorganized barbells, E-Z bars or simply, weights. Okay, we know you paid for the membership but it doesn't mean you can simply dump what you've used there. Have the courtesy to put the equipments back in their original place? Inconsiderate bastards! Other people have to search the whole gym to find one single piece of EQ.

5. Aunties or uncles who talk more than exercising. They talk about their shit from one end of the room to the other end. Loud, very. As if that's not distracting enough, they need to emphasize the topic by adding in lots of foul language. We don't need that in public places, c'mon, there are people who bring their kids as well you know? And some people just can't focus well if you make so much noise. To be fair, this does not only apply to aunties or uncles, I've seen young men doing this. Oh please, if you enjoy talking so much, go for high tea sessions.

4. Princes and princesses who use the treadmills or bikes for more than half an hour and they hardly break a sweat. It gets worse when there are no other cardio machines available. What the hell are you doing there? Enjoying the scenery? All I can see is 4 walls.

3. Windows shouldn't exist in gyms, huge windows especially. Passersby tend to look inside and just stare at you. Perhaps there's something on your face? But oh, I'm facing the mirror, there's absolutely nothing on my face! So what is he or she staring at!?!? It gets worse when you're running. Feels as if you wanna get down and punch that kepochi in his/her face.

2. People who hogs the damn machine for 20 - 30 minutes or wait, even more than that! What were they doing there? They were sitting down chatting away. For fuck's sake, are you blind? There's only one of those in the gym, get your ass off, you're not the only one who paid for it.

1. People love to gawk, especially when you're doing weights. They like to notice how heavy you're lifting. Seriously, are you there to check people out or burn some fat?

Anyways, gotta chao. Time to leave the house. Going back to Ipoh, can't wait to see my ex-deskmate and the Pest, I mean, the Queen.

the knack to murder

2010-01-06T16:48:00.002+08:00

Despite having a ridiculous timetable, I'm actually beginning to like Semester 3. Lovin' this semester because of the amount of subjects and the ludicrous time for most classes (Wednesday especially). It's from 8 - 9.30 am. After that I'm free for the whole day. Was bragging last night in front of my mom, she looked so incredibly annoyed and envious. Who wouldn't? I can have the whole day to myself, lazing around at home. This is the first Wednesday of the semester. Came home after class and immediately started to watch 07 Ghosts. After 3 episodes, took a zizz. Had a horrible dream of being put to sleep by a witch and I turned into a killing machine in order to defend myself. Killed the whole family. It was a pretty gory dream which involved cooking utensils as weapons. Very surreal though. As I was enjoying smashing people's heads and watching them crying out in pain, I was awoken by a voice,"Eh, hungry or not?". Dad's a wet blanket.

I'm pretty proud of myself today because I finally have the willpower to revamp my dusty blog after months of not blogging and not visiting it at all. First time using XML skins, quite a slow person, I've been living inside the forest alongside the farmers. Even decided to dumped many blog links that I don't really visit. Figured out it's better to shorten the list because it's quite an eyesore. For 2010, one of my resolutions is to not abandon the blog. This will be exciting year so why abandon it?

It might be a little late to say goodbye to 2009 but it was a really great year for me. Attended college for the first time. Even though up to this point, I don't really like going to college, I have to say the exposure is highly significant and worthwhile. Academically wise, I'm quite content with what I accomplished in 2009. The only complaint will be my results for Semester 2 but I've made an oath to give my best for this final semester. Besides that, I just realized that I watch more animes, read more and play more video games during my college years as compared to my high school years. Frankly, I'm not really sure whether this is problematic or not. One more thing, my caffeine addiction has gotten worse since last year. Fortunately I don't smoke or else my teeth will be really yellow.

2010 will definitely be thrilling and it's not because of my optimism. I don't think I have that in me but it's because Psychology intrigues me and Statistics is pretty challenging. Though it seems difficult but Ms. Jasamine claimed it's easier than Finite Maths, so that's definitely something to look foward to. March draws near. In other words, we're getting closer to the release date of FFXIII English version! There's also Kuroshitsuji Season 2 and K-On! Season 2!

The only thing that I'm not really happy about is that annoying Eric took entirely different subjects. We no longer have the same timetable. That's something to be sad about. No more breakfasts at McD every Monday and no more Starbucks sessions every Thursdays. Sheesh.

fatt choi mao my ass

2009-11-16T19:08:00.000+08:00

Was having dinner with relatives last night and I got attacked by a stray cat! Cats are incredibly pretentious. I'm not kidding. They act all cute and innocent, then they'll suddenly go nuts and ambush you. I couldn't even eat in peace. The cat was literally stalking me the whole night while I was in the restaurant. In the end it got so full of itself and it took over my chair. Thanks to that I had to stand for about 15 minutes.

Oh, Mix FM played FYI today. I got so happy and I virtually shouted in the car. As usual, my mom gave me a big swt look and continued driving and also as usual, she took the chance to annoy me by purposely saying Yuutada instead of Ootada. Anyways I didn't expect them to play that song.

Started playing FFI today since I've already finished GTA CTW. Such beautiful music and the so called 8 bit characters look damn adorable. Hopefully I won't get addicted since I need to finish 3 4 assignments by this week. Oh Kami-sama.

can i play with madness?

2009-11-10T19:04:00.000+08:00

Much has been happening recently. Had 2 practical programming assessments immediately the week after mid terms; thus, no time for me to even take a break. Dear lecturers were right when they said semester 2 is actually a run in the park. Fortunately I did not take Moral. Else it would be a sprint in the park.

Something must have fallen on my dad's head last Sunday because he finally helped me to drill the holes for the curtain bars and pin up board. I'm actually loving how the black, red and white blend together so perfectly, especially when my room is green in color. In other words, the bond between me and my bedroom is getting stronger. Heck, what comes out of my mouth these days is getting weirder. I wonder why. Must be excessive consumption of caffeine.

Found out something funny from Mey today. Apparently a few of my college friends on my MSN contact list think that I'm the person in the display picture that I use. They even said I look cute in the picture. I LOL-ed badly. Seriously. It's really comical but then again it's a tad depressing. Shows how much people pay attention to my face. They can't even differentiate the features on my face. *inserts crying emoticon* Guess I'll change my display picture to something which looks more celebrity-like.

Despite the shitload of assignments given, I still have time to catch up with the latest PSP games. For instance, GTA : China Town Wars. Good Lord, I utterly adore this game. I'm addicted to it. The old school top down camera view is wonderful! I don't comprehend people who thinks that just because the camera view is top down, the graphics are 2-D. How dense. The retro camera view makes the game so much enjoyable. There are so many mini games or side missions to be done including drugs dealing. Talk about the immensely 'good' influence that video games have on children these days. The best part of this game is-it revolves around chinese people. Hell yeah, asians rock. I'm so glad Rockstar decided to make this game. Chinese people can really kick ass. There's even a radio station which plays traditional chinese music which are played using instruments like Gu Zheng.

blues in the velvet room

2009-10-25T15:46:00.000+08:00

Covered this after being so inspired and motivated by Mr. Meguro.

the wonders of cgi movies

2009-10-25T10:56:00.000+08:00

To let our hair down after mid terms, Eric and I went to watch (3D) Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs. Unfortunately a few people were too busy to join us *coughs*coughs*. Great movie indeed! How can you actually hate a movie which revolves around food? (Especially when they look as if they fall in front of you!) Okay, maybe not so much around food but you still get to see an influx of food throughout the movie. Cheeseburgers, eggs, bacons, toasts, sausages, ice-cream, gummy bears, jelly beans, steaks, pizzas, meatballs, spaghetti and JELLY and Sardines of course. I was a tad disappointed because there aren't many meatballs after all. Meatballs only came down during the second half of the movie, and they're gigantic. There is of course a moral value behind this food story thing, which I find kinda okay, maybe it's redundant but still okay. If someone were to ask me the best food in the movie, I'd say the JELLO land! I'd die from happiness if I lived there. Die from obesity as well since I'll be consuming jelly every day. Quite a nice way to die ey? 2 awesome CGI movies will be coming soon during these 2 months; namely, Astro Boy and Avatar. Those two are must watch and I hope they don't screw up Astro Boy since it's a classic! It'd be a shame if they do so. I'm already spotting many Astro Boy merchandises in One U.

And before I forget, something funny happened during the first day of mid terms. Eric and I were sitting beside each other but with an unused PC in between us because that's how it should be during examinations. All of a sudden, the lecturer asked us not so sit together lest we will argue in the middle of the exam. I was like, uh, okay... do you think we're that immature to suddenly argue and throw insults at each other in the middle of an exam? Lecturers nowadays can be so funny.

I've also managed to get my hands on an "okay" qualtiy version of Persona Music Live. It's fucking amazing. Seriously. I kept getting goosebumps throughout the whole video except for one song by Nana Kitaide which was extremely disastrous. She sings worse than me so you can kinda get the idea how terrible she is. As if that's not enough to make me go EWW, she was wearing some kinda pyjamas-like attire with lace! To be more precise, it actually looks like a night gown! Let's not digress from the awesomeness of the video per se. It was an electrifying experience seeing the sound producer/composer of the SMT series rocking on his guitar for practically 2 hours. The other bands members are pretty good too. To my surprise, all the female vocalists did really well except for Nana. (boo to her even though she has a quite an okay face) All the songs sound exactly like what I've heard when I'm inside the game except that they made a lot of improvisations, which means more piano, saxophone and guitar solos! Now if only I can find the original DVD for this in Malaysia. Checked on YesAsia and it costs around RM 175++.

Anyhow I was looking forward to a laid back Sunday where I can just spend my whole afternoon finishing my games and playing the guitar. Unfortunately my parents just love going out on weekends. This can be pretty annoying when you already have everything planned beforehand so I guess this will just be another boring Sunday. Go out and look at the people. Immensely huge crowds making noise, colliding against each other as if the words hygiene and mannerism don't exist at all in their damn vocabulary.

new addiction = onmyouza

2009-10-19T20:31:00.000+08:00

Forsook my blog for at least 2 weeks if I'm not wrong. Well, I was too caught up in watching a few Yuri series such as Kannazuki no Miko and Aoi Hana (both worth checking out because they're the best Yuri I've watched so far, lol) and also playing SMT : Persona for the PSP. It's basically a remake of Persona : Revelations which was released years ago on the PSX platform. Old school dark JRPG! I'm loving the game so much. It has 4 endings, simply amazing. The best way to waste hours of my life away. Actually, I'm kinda tempted to get the original version since it comes with the soundtrack as well and since Shoji Meguro is one of my favorite video game composers, I wouldn't mind having the original OST but then again P3P will be coming out next year. Maybe I should save my money for that instead because I'm pretty damn sure P3P will be fucking epic. STOKED.

Mid term exams are this week, on Monday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Notice the break between Monday and Thursday? Not that I'm complaining about it but I think it's a tad weird. This might encourage some students to slack rather than study. It's hard to focus on studies for such a long period of time. And I screwed up C together. Have got to make sure I don't do the same for Visual Basic. Depression awaits me if something similar happens again. I've just realized today that I can get affected by exams. Maybe times has changed or maybe I was like that all along. Sometimes I don't give a damn even if my results are incredibly ugly looking but sometimes I end up getting super troubled by my results even though they are not very bad. Weird. OR maybe I'm really getting weirder each day. Some sort of phase?

Speaking of which, I've also been quite inspired lately to try coming up with my own acoustic renditions of my favorite Utada songs. Weak attempts but I'm sure something will come out of this soon, hopefully. It's a frustrating, (yet) satisfying process since I know nothing about family chords. Someone should just force me to take music theory, that'll make my life much easier.

Oh, someone's birthday is just around the corner!
LEST I forget to wish her, which sounds kinda infeasible since there's a huge reminder in the cbox, I'll wish her first. Happy Birthday CHICA or PRINCESS or HOTTIE or whatever name you wanna name yourself k? And uh, cash? No I don't have any, I don't think I'll be able to contribute to your *coughs*...franchise idea if you're still into it, which I doubt so *coughs*.

I'm off to watch some amazing videos of PERSONA LIVE MUSIC on youtube.

i got my lunchbox and i'm armed real well

2009-10-03T16:03:00.000+08:00

*post deleted because I do not want resentment to tarnish my blog*

red, yellow and purple

2009-09-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

Just had to share this. I'd be in seventh heaven if my fridge was like this throughout the year.

It has been really tiring since Raya holidays and it'll not be any better this week since there will be another damn replacement on Saturday. Replacements are okay but why must they save cost by switching off the air conditioners in the corridors and labs? Utterly farcical. Hotness leads to less comfort and less comfort leads to loss of attention. Cheap skate.

Mom was watching I Wanna Be a Model on tv8 and I stopped mopping the floor because something, no, someone caught my attention. There was this local boy band performing. To my horror, they look like an unsophisticated version of Big Bang. You know, those tight skinny jeans, geeky glasses and of course let's not forget the oversized sneakers. I don't know what brand BB wears because I'm not really a huge fan of them but I'm 101% sure this local boyband (which goes by the name FRIENDZ) wears Supra sneakers. Supra shoes are actually really nice shoes per se. These boys wearing those Supra kinda undermined the greatness of the shoes. Not only they imitated BB's looks but I was able to spot many similar dance moves. The only major difference is that their dance moves weren't synchronized at all! Worse, they kept hitting flat notes. It's either flat notes or the lyrics can't be heard because they can't hit the required key at all. To sum it all up, they were struggling and not many people clapped in the end.

Coincidentally, I saw a similar boyband performing at Sungai Wang today. They were serenading the crowd with "When You Say Nothing at All" by Ronan Keating. It was so obvious that they were too, struggling with the performance. One of the boys actually sang "the true in your eyes" instead of "the truth in your eyes". When you're an amateur performer and also when you're poor at speaking a certain language, why not just stick to your mother tongue? That'd make you look better, and hopefully sound better as well.

Geez, musicians nowadays consist of such people.
If that's the case, can I be a musician too? *squeals*

End of September draws near and this is the time of the year where most of my friends will be celebrating their birthday. I actually have a confession to make. Crystal has really really poor memory when it comes to birth dates so if I've forgotten yours, please do forgive me. Seriously it's just something that can't be helped. Last time it wasn't this bad because Friendster has birthday reminders. Unfortunately, I do not log in Friendster anymore; thus, I can't remember the birth dates of you guys out there. The only person's birthday I can remember is my mom's. As if it's not embarrassing enough, two days ago, I asked my friend whether her birthday was on that day itself. (lol) Ever since then, I realized I suck at remembering dates because I remembered she told me her birth date a few weeks back.

the headphone's cord looks really nice

2009-09-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

Another video!
Guess what, it's ANOTHER UTADA cover. I hope those who bother watching don't get fed up. (lol) most probably by now you'll be thinking I don't really have a life since I posted 2 videos in less than 3/4 days?

Wonderful day!
The only class that I was supposed to attend this morning was cancelled without any prior notice. Fortunately I'm not those who needs to travel for hours to get to college. And also thankfully that I had plans after classes. Bought a few cool stuff today. Got to say I'm loving my new HP800 headphones. Awesome audio for my ears. Right, like what Sonic Gear says, TRUST YOUR EARS.

Woohoo! Managed to tab out this song with the help of the headphones. (like they're related!) Anyway here's the video. Someone please tell me how to rectify the distorted backing track problem.

Watched The Unbelievable today. The cinema was practically empty except for a few rows. As expected for a Chinese movie, right?

If you have no idea what the eff is The Unbelievable, I'll be kind enough to brief you through a bit so that you won't look stupid when your chinese friend mentions it. Basically it's a documentary style kinda movie. The Hong Kong crew travels around the world (actually it's just Thailand and Ipoh) to capture the supernatural incidents. Find such things intriguing? Then I suggest you watch it. You'll either go LOL or you might get disgusted by certain scenes. There are many BOMOH/SHAMAN scenes. The scenes are not for the faint hearted! However if you have some kinda twisted sense of humor (like me), you'll find the scenes very funny as well. I know I don't really make sense. You might wanna watch this movie on dvd *coughs* because it doesn't have any special effects. The whole thing is apparently true. Right, believe what you want. =D

There was this long trailer for a new movie entitled Carriers. Mymy, I was so happy when I saw that Piper Perabo will be a part of the main cast! How long has it been since I last saw her appearing on the golden screen? Anyways, what's with all the movies these days? Most of them are related to infection > mutation. This has been done too many times.

On a random note, I don't really wanna go back to Ipoh. I'd rather stay here, finishing my damn essays.

schmaltzy

2009-09-17T01:44:00.000+08:00

Was feeling sentimental earlier this evening.
Hence, I did this.
First attempt playing songs in this way.

It's First Love btw.
Was listening to this while I was in form 1.... if I'm not wrong.

I think I kinda butcher the song during the end, the backing track was too loud. LOL.

And I'm addicted to Blow My Whistle. HOT. HOT. HOT VOICE.

i suck at coming up with titles

2009-09-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

This is the best Bolognese spaghetti on earth. Absolutely heavenly. Money can't buy it.

I find it exasperating when someone goes around asking for donation when you're happily having your meal.

No, I'm not heartless, mind you, but these people can really be annoying after you read my story. So I was having a drink today while Eric was having his early dinner. Then this girl came to us. According to her, she said she's from some kinda Ihaven'theardbeforethatnameCollege. Not that I wasn't paying attention, she was talking quite fast and her English sounded really weird, weird accent. Was it even accent? It doesn't matter. Let's not digress.

She explained, more like kept convincing us that she isn't a bad person. She even asked us whether we're scared of her. What the heck? We're too old to be afraid of you. Seriously. If you're really from a college, most probably you're practically the same age as us. As expected from someone who asks for donation, she presented her documents (approved by the Government) and photos of the children who are having some kinda disease. A disease which causes them to lose the ability to talk and move if I'm not wrong. It was difficult to catch what she was trying to convey. At the end of her short little speech, she asked us to buy the stickers to show our support and love and care and help, whatever you call it. One sticker is at priced at RM 10.00. Being the skeptical and thrifty Crystal, I politely declined by saying No Thanks. Still, she kept persuading us. Total Pest! After a few more tries, she gave up. When she left, she was cursing under her breath! Do I look as if my hearing is impaired?

Thumbs up for someone who comes out to do such kind things. Is that how someone should behave when he or she comes out to solicit money from the public? We have rights not to donate. Get over it. I hope you don't get too annoyed by the end of the day and bang your head in the wall just because people chose not to donate.

First of all, I didn't even know whether her documents are real or not. To be frank, I'm too stupid to distinguish the differences between a fake and a truly certified document. I believe it's a piece of cake to photoshop documents so that they have such effects. Oh no, wait, it actually can be done by using Words. Besides, the photos can be easily obtained from websites. All in all, it didn't really seem genuine. Gah, she's such a biatch.

I've watched a couple of new movies, namely, Gamer, Final Destination 4 and Orphan.

Gamer is mediocre, same goes for Final Destination 4. Apparently the FD4 which is aired in Malaysia has been edited. Many violent scenes were taken out. Is it true? Anyone who has watched it in cinema ought to know this. I'm not really sure but that was what I heard from a couple of adults. So, I ended watching the not-so-official version of it. It's FD anyways, the previous ones didn't have any special storyline or plot so what can you really expect from this? The whole point of watching is just to see how each character dies in an unique way. I'd say a beautiful death for each one of them.

Was expecting more from Gamer but I was a tad disappointed. The trailer looked profoundly exciting! The movie isn't as great but I do like the concept of the games that they have in the movie. How cool is THAT!? When will we have such things in real world? Hopefully some brilliant programmers will pick up from there and start implementing such games. It'd be cool, except for dying in reality. The movie doesn't have much plot or whatsoever. Meh.

Next movie that I watched; Orphan. In fact, I watched this like an hour ago? Or maybe less than that? Initially, the movie gives the audience the feeling that it's just your typical this-child-is-evil-and-sick-and-will-kill-you movie. It's not. The story was really well written. I'm sure most viewers would be surprised. The theme of the movie is quite dark though. You might not wanna watch it if you think Incest is gross. I think incest is gross too but in actual fact, it's not all about incest. It's more than that. Isabell Fuhrman, the main actress who plays Esther, the creepy girl in the poster is incredibly talented. She did a wonderful job playing Esther, really brings out the dark psycho side of her. Was watching her interviews on Youtube just now. She looks so different! Got to say I'm quite enthralled by her. Looking forward to her upcoming projects. =)

i love steve jobs!

2009-09-10T11:43:00.000+08:00

source : Gamespot

OH MY GOD! I SO WANNA HAVE AN IPOD NOW!!! It's SO EFFING AWESOME. =D SO I CAN TOUCH TOUCH THE SCREEN!!

Apple has done it AGAIN.
This is not the first time the staff are being so full of themselves. When someone is too brilliant, he'll start to have weird ideas. Ideas that don't make sense. Somehow I can't really understand what makes him think that the iPod/iPhone or whatever i-THING can be more superior than DS or the PSP when it comes to gaming.

He claims that the i-Products actually a wide array of games is he really not aware that true gamers prefer quality to quantity? Geez, SOLITARE? Who'd buy such an expensive piece of gadget to play Solitare? Do we get to play superb games such as Dissidia or Dragon Quest or Silent Hill or God of War?
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Such a shame that they're using this kinda approach to reach out to consumers.
I don't know whether I should laugh or what when I saw this article. I think I better laugh because his comments are ludicrous.

As much as I dislike Nintendo, it's pretty evident that the DS is more capable than the i-crap. So sorry if I offend any Apple users/lovers here. As for PSP, I'm not even gonna make any points because we all know how amazing this handheld gaming device is. Nuff' said.

Lab starting soon in 10 minutes.
Gotta rush from Starbucks back to college.
..and I hate seaweed chips. Someone should have brought it back with him.

oh really?

2009-09-04T19:47:00.000+08:00

I merely replaced it with that word because I practically ended up using an even worse word. You don't need to act as if it's a big deal. It's rather exasperating because I absolutely loathe to be bombarded with such preachings during dinner. Imagine eating nicely and suddenly someone gives you a talk which sounds like something from the bible. You people seriously make me feel as if I'm deranged. Oh, wait, maybe I REALLY am but I won't let this get the best of me, I'm not as stupid as that. I just feel like going to bed, rather than listening. Ear sore can only be avoided when we sleep.

One of my class mates told us that he is able to get girls easily in the future if he's rich enough. He phrased it like this, "the girls will automatically come when you have the money". Oh my God. Are you serious? Tell me, are you serious? Do you think ALL the HOT CHICKS in the world will flock to you if you have the moo lah? Are you fucking kidding me? Please don't preach that because that little theory of yours definitely does not apply to every single girl. He was indeed lucky because my group only has 3 girls including me. How appalling! People nowadays can really easily blabber something utterly foolish without realizing it. Damn right I was sitting in front and scoffing at him. I guess he's partially misogynistic because he view females from such a perspective. It's not your money, really. If you really want a decent looking girl and someone who's intelligent, do you think she'll suck up to you because of your money? Tell me. She's most probably intelligent enough to get a better job and thus, shop for all the things she desire. By the way, this was a part of our discussion for our life plan. Imagine, one of his life plans are GIRLS, which literally means he wants to bang as many girls as he can throughout his life. *in awe* good luck to you anyway. Not like I don't like him, he's okay but I just find this idea of his ridiculous.

Annoying.
My mood is incredibly bad now. Must be the monthly blues or whatever it is. Or maybe it's multiple frustrations in a day. Screw it, most probably I'll feel better after sleeping. Gah, there's no holiday on Monday for HELP students because HELP is not exactly in PJ. It's like SO NEAR to PJ. The frustrations just keep coming.

On a happier note, it was a fun afternoon today. Had food at Jack's Place. Yummy potatoes with sour cream and chicken bacon. That was indeed heavenly! Bought 2 Utada Hikaru CDs from Movie Corner. My first ever J-pop CD but who cares, she's unbelievably amazing, unlike those stupid brainless pretty plastic girls who can't sing and knows nothing about music. Her new english album sounds a tad too mainstream but I still enjoy it. Deep River is truly a masterpiece. Most probably I'll get Distance as well when I feel generous enough.

wait and see

2009-08-30T22:59:00.000+08:00

Has anyone read The Star today? WHO said that Malaysia is taking H1N1 too lightly. Is it true? Although I'm not someone who will side Malaysia when it comes to everything but I do think that in terms of dealing with H1N1, efforts have been taken. Government's initiative has been quite evident. Since the mutated form of H1N1 is extremely fatal, I guess more and more people will be wearing masks nowadays. Should I wear one as well? Dad thinks that H1N1 might be one of early signs of 2012. Is he obsessed with that or what? He has been watching those documentary and all. Tch.

Never thought that I will run across Claymore merchandise in Malaysia, especially Ipoh. I guess I underestimated my hometown afterall. When I inquired, they showed me various pendants and an action figurine. Yeah, they're all not originals but screw it, I bought 2 pendants anyways. My penchant for Claymore is quite ineffable. Sadly the action figurine doesn't look gorgeous enough. Clare isn't wearing the Claymore suit. I wouldn't wanna buy a reverse trap action figurine.

Oh look, it's my ex-class monitor!

It was great hanging out with my ex-desk mate, de facto, one of my delinquents. Just now when I was going through my photo albums, both of us do look different compared to secondary days. Look older perhaps? But I am quite glad that my face isn't as horrendous as it was back then. Most probably because I'm no longer a teenager. Should I still consider myself one? I'm not really sure about that.

i'd side chaos if i could

2009-08-26T15:59:00.000+08:00

YAY FOR HOLIDAYS!
It's rather depressing that my sem break will be ending soon. Need to get back to college on the 2nd of Sept. Geez, I've been having so much fun lately. In fact, I've been so engrossed in a few activities. Most importantly, I've been busy playing Dissidia : Final Fantasy. It got leaked. HOW AWESOME, which means most fans have been playing the english version a few days before the 25th. So far so good, I have no complaints for the game because I'm so bias when it comes to FF. Moreover I haven't finished it yet. It'll be cool if they did not omit Yuna. For heaven's sake, there's only one female on Cosmos's side? I don't really care about the guy from FFXII anyways because he looks weird.

(And as I am typing this, my dad is msning me from the computer room. He's telling me how the soup got burnt. Good for him, he'll get executed by my mom who will be coming home in less than an hour. No soup for dinner as well. Tch).

The customization is excellent! Actually the game will be better if they have cool summon cutscenes, maybe like what they did for Crisis Core? Prevalently, I'm not a zealot of fighting games but this is different. It isn't as conventional as the other fighting games. Sometimes the battles get really chaotic because you can fly from one corner to the other corner.

What else can a FF fan ask for? Cecil, Firion, Kefka, Terra, etc are now fully 3d. I'd love Squarenix if they remake all the older FF games using these kinda graphics. Somehow Tidus and Sephiroth look a bit weird in Dissidia. I wonder why. Seriously I'll be wasting so many hours of my life just to collect as many points as possible to purchase bad ass characters from the in-game shop. First off, I'll get Sephiroth followed by Jecht.

Got bored last night while playing bRO. Thus, Eric and I took a photo. Took us awhile to time the GG command. I'm bored of playing champ. What other characters should I play? Maybe I should get a job which is underrated.

And when will the final results be mailed to us? I'm really anxious because I want to make sure I pass Malaysian Studies. It'd suck if I have to pay a few hundred bucks again just to pass the damn subject which I detest so much.

i've found another reason to hate DS

2009-08-19T01:52:00.001+08:00

Oh. My. God.

Can't say how disappointed I am right now. I didn't know disappointment can be so overwhelming.

So when they first announced a Claymore game for DS, I was excited, no, de facto, very fucking thrilled. Even though I do not own a DS because I'm a DS HATER, I did tell my friend that I might actually save up for a DS just to play the game. Sounds stupid? Not really. I've done worse things because of my penchant for fantasy like things. Anyways, I've changed my mind! I will absolutely not spend even a cent on the DS because the game is atrocious. Some disappointed fan was kind enough to post a short gameplay video of lvl 1. My first reaction was, what the fuck, WOLVES? They did not have wolves in the anime or manga. (correct me if I am wrong) So what the hell is Clare doing? She needs so slice wolves in the game? Funny. And when it comes to the battle with the Yoma, guess what, the Yoma jumped! It jumped around like a chinese undead. Amusing is the right word!

Tch. In the first place, they've already screwed up by making it a side scroller game. What's wrong with them? That's so incredibly dull. Not that I hate side scroller games. Mario was awesome, so was Prince of Persia for MS-Dos. But let's face it, people nowadays don't really crave for such games anymore. Claymore has a lot of potential if it were made into a game similar to DMC/KH style. In other words, 3rd person view, Hack N Slash style. Since Claymore itself already has a solid story, there is nothing to fret except for the gameplay. Then, it'd be epic! All Claymore aficionados will rejoice. In fact, I don't mind if they release a fighting game. At least, it's better than this piece of junk. The only thing that I will praise is the Yoki controlling system. It is pretty cool to control Yoki with the stylus.

Developers, please make a remastered version of this game for the PSP? PLEASE? Or should I write this to Santa? I'm dying to play a Claymore game. Or should I say, GOD, I PRAY FOR A CLAYMORE GAME FOR PSP but please make sure it doesn't suck ass like the DS version. Please make sure it's epic enough.

From the research I've been doing, it seems that Teresa, Miria, Irene and a few other significant Claymore characters will appear in the game. I wonder whether Galatea will make an appearance. *smirks* Although this game is really piece of shit, I'd still be glad if anyone is kind enough to lend me their DS so that I can get my hands on this game. ^_^

These pictures do not belong to me. However, they're just too awesome for me to not post them. Galatea is a true goddess. ._.

Thus, my day ends with not only disappointment but also sadness and anger as this game tarnishes Claymore.

it's not the end of the era

2009-08-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

Akado

A russian band! They look kinda VK to me but I'm not that bothered. Since Vitas was the only Russian artist that I listened to, this band's music sounds like a metal-ized version of Vitas's songs. Funny. Unfortunately it's kinda difficult to find download links for Russian music. Shit those people who only pay attention to American bands. Russian bands need more attention!

Lotsa stuff happened recently. I guess most of them are more towards the positive side. Most importantly, my mom has finally transferred down. So I'm finally living together with my mom! It's nice. Nothing beats having a mother around. The feeling is... I'd say irreplaceable. For a moment there I guess I sound like such a little girl or whatever you wanna label me. Major changes will be taking place inside the house. A woman in the house tantamounts to a cleaner and a more comfortable home.

Took final exams last week so I'll be free for 2 weeks plus. Sem 2 starts on the 2nd of Sept. Yours truly will be slacking like nobody's business. Mom said I should go look for a part time job but guess what, I'm so not interested in working and most probably I'm such a lazy ass. I'd rather spend my sweet time finishing up games and practising guitar. To neutralize my sheer laziness, I'll do more house chores. Brilliant. (9 more days to FF Dissidia... I'll be on cloud nine)

Actually, the sole purpose of updating the blog is to do the Choong Yang's tag since he insisted and I'm also still a tad attached to the blog. It wouldn't be nice for the blog to have such a pathetic death.

1.What kind of song you usually listen to?
Mostly rock, metal and soundtracks.

2.Name 10 of your favourite singers(Solo/Band)
1. Gazette
2. L'Arc~en~Ciel
3. Dir en grey
4. Nobuo Uematsu
5. Jason Mraz
6. John Mayer
7. B'z
8. Nightwish
9. Marilyn Manson
10. Avenged Sevenfold

3.What makes you like a song.
Music comes first. Then vocals and lyrics.

4.Most favourite clubbing songs.
Don't go clubbing but I might change my mind if they start playing some REAL MUSIC.

5.Other than english songs, do you listen to song in other language?
Japanese, korean, russian, chinese, malay, german?

6.Do you listen to chinese songs?
Not much except for Jay Chou and Jacky Cheung and Beyond.

7.Open your player and press next until it goes to a chinese song and write it down.
All of my chinese songs are on my external and I think the person who made this quiz loves chinese songs. What's with all these "chinese songs" questions?

8.Do you know what is the meaning of the song ?
What?

9.Do you like the song?
Pointless question.

10.Press next again , write down the song .
Next song.. Nightmare - Raison d'etre

11.Do you buy original album or download songs illegally..
I do TRY to get original albums but Malaysia doesn't import those albums that I want, or most shops just love selling bloody bootlegs.

12.Based on question 2, according to the list name the your favourite song sang by the singer/band.
1. Baretta (drum solo, bass solo, guitar solo...all in one!)
2. Honey
3. Filth
4. Jenova , the AC version because it has kick ass electric guitar.
5. Plane
6. Neon , the acoustic version.
7. Motel
8. She is My Sin
9. Lunch box
10. A Little Piece of Heaven

13.Now tag 10 friends of yours.
Not interested.

14.Hard Part, find a song for each of them.
Unnecessary.

15.Last Question. Dedicate a song to all.
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts the Most
(because I'm currently listening to this and I think it's so easy to listen to)

Fuh, that wasn't as easy as I expected it to be.

weird dreams of lizards and caterpillars

2009-07-25T18:05:00.001+08:00

I'm currently enjoying my weekend. It has been great so far. Frankly, I think I'm in such a good mood because there are no test papers for next week. Only have to worry about handing in the outline for Oral presentation.

Watched Public Enemy yesterday. Pretty good but not extremely good. The movie gave me the same feeling that Valkyrie did. I wonder why? Maybe it's because both are based on true stories and both have such tragic endings? It's a pity that the protagonist or (maybe antagonist) died. Bah, maybe I'm being so bias because Johnny Depp plays that character. Seriously, he looks freaking hot for his age. There's just something about him, it's inexplicable. Charisma and the confidence perhaps.

Since there's nothing much for me to do today, I have the excuse to do another cover, Mist / Fog. It's one of the instrumentals off SMT : Persona 4 OST. It's played during the final battle. Playing this makes miss my ps2 which is still in Ipoh. Feel like replaying p4 because it's just soooo awesome! Memories. T_T Gosh, I can get so sentimental when it comes to games and animes.

dejected

2009-07-20T23:04:00.001+08:00

Is it me or the line today is really shitty? Or maybe PLURK is shitty but I think the line IS shitty because I can't seem to load myfreedictionary.com as well. Annoying. I finally know what hurts the most. In my case, it's when my gadgets are malfunctioning. That's right. My mom made my psp drop from the table. The table is about more than 1 metre high. Imagine the impact! Such a fragile little thing dropping from such height is really too much. I bet its internal parts are not in tact anymore. Tried playing PangYa Golf today and it kept "hanging" and switching off by itself. Guess what, it's fucked. I'm SO SO SO HURT and depressed. Will try to reformat the psp (doubt it'll work). Mom said she will get me a new one if it's dead. The thing is I feel kinda attached to this one, it's so sad even if I were to get a new one from her. And I think 2000s are getting extinct. I wouldn't wanna get a 3000. It's unacceptable for my PSP and I to part so early. There are big titles coming out at the end of this year that I'm so looking forward to such as Persona and FF Dissidia and the new GTA and FF AGITO. *sulks*

This week is the QUIZ week again. How mundane. And I'm supposed to give the title for English Oral presentation tomorrow but I have yet to come up with a nice topic. Crystal is dead meat.

To take away my depression, I've been trying to play this the whole evening. Ended up doing a cover. Utada Hikaru's Hikari or better known as Simple and Clean which is the theme song for Kingdom Hearts. Nop, I didn't bother to finish that game but I've always love this song. It's wonderful. She has such a beautiful voice. No no, I did not sing the song. I'm not so dumb to sing the song and end up butchering it. Instead, I did a cover of Rising Sun version. In other words, it's the instrumental rock version.

I really really need a better amplifier and distortion pedal. Such crappy sound system I have. People today have been quite amicable. I wonder why.

like this and that

2009-07-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

Last weekend was quite fun. Went back to Ipoh for Anugerah. I think the school is a TAD cheapskate. I'm not badmouthing the school, just stating the obvious. Why can't they give the student a trophy that they can keep at home? It kinda sucks when you can just hold the trophy when you go on stage. Pure lameness. Oh wells, at least those were moments of bliss. And I can't believe someone overslept. Thus, her mom came to represent her. Amazing.

Went to Parade after that to meet up with Ken-Ann. Also met Audrey there. This is the part where my anger kicks in. Bought Strawberry Panic and FFVII : CC OST. Seriously, I find the packing for the anime really shitty, so I did some online research and found out that practically every single anime in Malaysia are bootleg ones. Yes, all those anime you see in Anime Tech, Friendly Records, and even old-time Speedy are indeed FAKE ONES. FAKE. Have you been buying most of your anime from there? If you have been doing that, you're fucked and I'm surprised how you can understand those shitty subtitles.

Don't ask me why I know they're fake because it's so damn prominent that they ARE FAKE. First reason, how can they fit so many episodes into 1 single DVD? It's impossible unless you really compress the frame rates, res, and so on. This explains why I used 2 DVDs to burn the same amount of episodes. Next reason, the subtitles are absolutely horrendous. They don't make sense at all. Thirdly, the box sucks. Originals are always comes in nice neat packaging. Not like these cheap ass ones. And forthly, the price, it's quite cheap. I used to think because it's localized but the reason why is because they aren't originals! How depressing. If it's like that, let's all stick to fansubs! Fan subs are better in every way. Higher quality, great subtitles (they even include explanation when it's too hard to understand the proverbs, etc) and they even have subtitles for the OP and ED!!! Most of all, it's free.

Fuck. Fortunately the ratio of my downloading to purchasing genuine stuff is 999 : 1. So far I've only got 3 so called original anime.

Bought this a few years back. I was skeptical back then but I choose to ignore those thoughts of mine because of the TULEN sticker.

This one is the worst, they recorded the anime from one of the anime channels. I've forgotten the name of the channel.

And this will be the last time I get scammed!

Seriously, this is extremely disappointing. I've heard crap like battling piracy. Is this the way Malaysia plans to battle piracy? I don't know how many people are being cheated out there. Can you believe that they are actually selling bootlegs with a TULEN sticker there? Geez.

that feeling

2009-07-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

God, I can't believe that this week has been so hectic. It's supposed to be a short honeymoon week since mid terms ended last Thursday. This is all because of the assignments. All the damn assignments are due this week and next week. Did 2 assignments this week and both gave me severe headache because major changes had to be made last minute because of certain reasons, certain stupid reasons.

Malaysian Studies presentation was so screwed up. Pity those who almost dozed off listening to us. Some even walked out. Well, surprisingly, I did not curse them. They have my empathy. Really. We were talking about Malaysia's Independence. Each one of us have been forced to learn that since primary school. It's no surprise that they got bored. Worst, the sound system in theatrette was so fucked up. The video that we made was totally butchered. Only the background music could be heard, the voice of the people in the video was not audible at all. What a pity.

Ahh, never mind that because there are still a few reasons for me to be happy. I did not fail Finite Maths for mid terms. I managed to get more than half which I consider quite an achievement for some stupid brainless person like me when it comes to numbers. REJOICE! Not only that, I even managed to hand in my Finite Maths assignment thanks to Yan Ying who helped me out during the eleventh hour. If not for her, I would've handed in a clean sheet of paper for the lecturer to wipe her face or write a love letter to her boyfriend.

Besides assignments, I've actually been wasting hours of my life watching several old thriller/horror movies such The Unborn, Arang and Anatomy 2. I just realized that the best thing someone can do to distract me is to play an extremely sick and disturbing movie, then I'd be glued to the seat until the movie ends (provided the storyline is intriguing enough). And I also find it amusing to watch scenes like the one above when I'm having my meals. It's like you can feel the pain more when you watch and eat at the same time. Something like engaging more of your senses. Works for me.

Have I mentioned that I'm addicted to Strawberry Panic? Yes, it's old, yeah whatever, I know that but it's so fun and enjoyable! The characters are all very lovable and easy to relate to because I was in an all girls school for 11 years! However, I have to say that those people or whoever you call them who directed this anime were quite a lazy bunch. They like to have 'still scenes'. Lazy lazy lazy. Nevertheless it is still a great anime, mostly because I adore Shizuma a lot.

and it goes on and on

2009-06-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

You don't have to fucking yell at me. I'm not deaf. It's ludicrous to simply blame people just because you're suck at giving simple directions. It's already over and yet you have to raise your voice. Not like I have some hearing disability. As far as I'm concerned, your phone still has a lot of battery left since you did not even bother charging it the moment you got home. If it was so low on battery then why could you still text so many people and phone at the same time? If it's so fucking low then can't you not reply your text messages? For fuck's sake, geez, it annoys me much when you act as if I'm at fault, when obviously I'm not. No one was at fault but you had to make such a scene by yelling. It's uncivilized and rude and harsh to do so. If you think it is so onerous for you, just say so you don't wanna do it. That's better than telling me I'll be on my own next time your phone call gets cut halfway. I bet it's great to push away your responsibility. I have legs, I wouldn't die anyway. MOMCANYOUPLEASECOMEDOWNFASTER!?

Looking on the brighter side, my mid terms are finally over. I get Friday off as well. Went to Pavillion with friends to watch Transformers. Then friend's friend sprained her ankle. Poor thing. I hope she's alright. Surprisingly she was still able to laugh, enjoy the movie and drink Starbucks. Starbucks is definitely an amazing medicine for any type of injury!

Anyways, Transformer kicks ass. Really. Like, REALLY. I'm serious. Might be a bit too long for watchers who lose focus easily, and also a tip, go to the loo before entering the cinema. You wouldn't want to hold your bladder or go out half way (you can't afford to miss the action!). Profoundly solid effects and I love how they blend in humor. It's really worth the money. If you're trying to decide between this and Terminator, I'd say go for this. 5 stars all the way.

I'm just curious why they're using LP's single as their theme song. That song is just medicore. The breakdown part is pretty good but other than that is just... mehhh. It's always a great opportunity for indie bands to gain a larger fanbase if they use their songs for such big budget movies but definitely they wouldn't include their songs because they want everything to be perfect. Tch. Went through the list of Transformer's OST. Avenged Sevenfold's Almost Easy is on the list. I'm quite happy about that although they're not pure indie.

Saw STARFUCKS t-shirt but it's a bit too large. Didn't buy it. Ugh.

ice-like

2009-06-19T18:29:00.000+08:00

Streamyx was down at 12 ++ this morning. By the time I got home, which was at 5 ++, Dad suddenly said, "Eh girl, okay already, can lah".

My face was like o_O. REALLY?
I said, "GAM KENG MEH STREAMYX?"

Speechless.
To be frank, I'm immensely impressed. Usually they take a century to fix their shit. This time it took them less than 24 hours. They said they will fix it latest by this Monday. Surprisingly they took less than a day. Congratulations. I think you people are really improving. Let's hope there won't be any deteriorations in the future. My life will be much better and (also happier) like that.

Enough of the good news. Yours truly will be having her mid terms starting from tomorrow. Why the fuck must they have the first paper on Saturday? It's a weekend. Doesn't make sense to me. For the next whole week, I have to make my way to college just for the sake of taking the exam. One paper per day. It's no more than 2 hours for each paper. What a waste of petrol. The people who set the exam schedule obviously have no brains. What is more, they're not environmental friendly. Making candidates (indirectly) use up so much energy just to get to college. Geez.

Saturday, Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Then I'm done.
Awesome ey, I'm so looking forward to watching Transformers right after my Computing Principles paper which is on the last day. Ahh, tomorrow is English. Kinda dread it but not as much as I dread freaking maths. Hopefully English won't be so technical.

...and I want a nice new bag for putting my stuff. I'm always worried that all my stuff will fall out of my current bag. Paranoid, I know.

This man, Tony Horton is simply amazing. Amazing strength, and he's a pure genius when it comes to variety. Added to my list of "The People I'd Like To Meet". Cardio has never been that hard (and fun!), his version of cardio is so much tougher than HIIT.

a little piece of heaven

2009-06-14T21:11:00.000+08:00

Am I the only one who's not excited about PSP Go's release? The name itself sucks. Seriously. PSP GO? How lame is that? The main thing which really suck is the design. It's horrendous. Looks like a piece of 'flat potato'. Like those hash browns that you buy from McDonald's, but just a bit wider. Another thing which I really dislike is the 'sliding' technology. Looks a bit uncomfortable if you ask me. Long story cut short, it's quite a turn off except for the games that they'll be releasing. I'm not a huge fan of platform games such as J&D but they'll be releasing a new MGS on PSP Go. Does that mean the game isn't available for the previous PSPs? I hope not because my PSP isn't even a year-old yet! Sony always have the greatest ideas to make money. I wonder why they're not adding a camera to it. The cool thing is this ugly model supports bluetooth. If they were to add a camera, this thing can really kick Apple's ass. Oh, and I have not mentioned the most annoying (and also stupidest) thing about PSP Go. It does not have a friggin UMD so they're expecting gamers to download all their games from the net. Well done Sony. Let's see the impact in a few months' time.

Was browsing Afterellen.com. One of the writers there critisized this article and the author of the article as well. Ladies, please click and read it, it's about WHY WOMEN CAN'T BE BOSSES. I bet you'll be infuriated after going through the first page. I'm not surprised that the writer, Paul Thompson is siding men because he's from Askmen.com but seriously, this article proves how much he belittles women. Not only that, it's evident that he has no respect for women by making such stupid statements. Besides, this guy really has a brain which is smaller than a pea because he's too conservative. Obviously his article is total bullshit, if it's really true then tell me why women are becoming more successful these days? Fucking sexist and misogynistic. People like that disgusts me a lot. Ahh, he reminds me of Gordon Ramsay. I'm sure some of you guys have read news about him making a fool of himself by talking utter shit on national television. These two men need help, really. I hope God helps them.

bottle it up

2009-06-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

People, thieves nowadays are pathetic.
Not only that, they're not good at detecting IT at all. I believe that true robbers have the potential to see things, to sense things, whether that particular AIM will be worth it or not.

What happens when you break someone's window? You did it for the sake of stealing the laptop.
Broad daylight. Opened the bag. Turns out that there were only pool balls and screwdrivers inside. Disappointed? Small time thief.

Poor thief. He wasted a few minutes of his life doing that. Futile effort, ey?
I was surprised that the thief chose my dad's car because his car is seriously so OLD and worn out. Not that he parked it near some 'lauyah' or 'pariah' building. It was right in front of Hartamas Mall's main entrance. Bloody security guard must be slacking. Ass.

Oh btw, it's JUNE. What's so special about June? It's the THE LGBT Pride Month. Folks, let's celebrate. =) In fact, I celebrate LGBT pride everyday. Lol. But I'm a tad happy that Obama is doing something right. Be good this month and stop bashing people and be kind with your comments whenever you encounter queer people. Equal rights. Rainbows. Love, is what the world needs.

Source : http://www.whitehouse.gov/the_press_office/Presidential-Proclamation-LGBT-Pride-Month/

she needs a shaker

2009-06-05T16:29:00.000+08:00

Dragonica's OBT started yesterday but I have not tried it yet. It's taking forever because of the massive amount of people downloading it. Thus, I'm bored. Stuck at home on a Friday evening with nothing to do. Was supposed to go Mid Valley but plans were ruined because of some important *coughs* lunch with cousins. A cousin that I don't even speak to. Not gonna go further because I know that I will inadvertently talk a bit too much if I continue this. Tch.

Last night I was compelled to follow dad to a pub because he had to socialize with a few friends there. I HATE HATE HATE HATE places like that. They disgust me much. I mean the pubs, and yes, also the people there. No offense. The main pest: smokers. Smokers smoking in public. Yes I know you'll die if you stop smoking for one hour but do you realize that whenever you smoke in public, you're killing non-smokers around you? Oh, of course you don't have a fucking clue about that because people who usually end up dying faster are second hand smokers, not you, prick. People who know me might think I'm a hypocrite for saying this but never once in my life I smoked in the public. And before you start making assumptions, no, I don't smoke.

Btw, Could somebody tell me why people nowadays LOVE giving inappropriate replies? When someone talks to you in English, do you reply in Mandarin? Anyone who is able to think properly will know it's wrong. If you think it's right, why not try to do your exam paper in another language. Answer your Sejarah paper in English okay?

I think I am ranting a bit too much lately. In fact I don't feel like talking much sometimes. Things are getting more sickening. Most probably I'm feeling this way because of stress. Well, stress doesn't come from college life but, geez, I actually have no idea what's the primary source.

Miss Selena was using this on Wednesday for her lecture. On Thursday morning while I was reading dailymuscle.com, I found this picture as well. Coincidence. Coincidences can be freaky.

you are an ant in the afterbirth

2009-05-31T00:39:00.000+08:00

Egyptians worshiping the cat. Frankly, I find this very disturbing yet impressive. I consider cats to be wicked creatures but the Egyptians worshiped the cats because these cats were consider sacred. And they even mummified the cats when they were dead. Guess what, they even shavedd off their eyebrows during the mourning period when their cats passed away. Just got to know stuff like these earlier this afternoon while I was doing research for the assignment. Would like to say thanks, much thanks to Zhen Min who gave me many interesting keywords and ideas. *kao tao to Zhen Min*

So a huge part of my day was gone doing that. Earlier in the morning, Dad and I was cleaning the house because my mom, otherwise known as the Queen will be coming down in the evening. I just saw her last week but I'm still very happy to see her. I guess it's true that most kids are just closer to their moms instead of their daddys. *grins* she'll be coming down in August and I know that life will be much better with her around because ...c'mon, we all know moms are better at food. Heh.

On a random note, I'm loving my Sonic Gear Ear Pump earphones. Great quality at such an affordable price. Unlike other overrated brands, pay a huge amount of money and get shitty quality. The noise isolation technology is not bad for less than 50 bucks. Apart from that, the bass is pretty good. The most important thing is I can hear the whole track clearly even when I'm walking by the roadside or travelling on the highway or when somebody else is blasting the stereo. It's really gratifying when the moment you put on those earphones, the whole atmosphere changes because of the music you're playing from your own audio player. Imagine playing Vitas's Lucia di Lamermor while crossing the road. Sometimes I TRY hard, not to listen to such exciting music while crossing the road, I might be focusing too much on the notes and end up being knocked down by a car. Bloody hell.

Manson's new album is TEH SHIT

2009-05-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

Time passes too quickly. Will be sitting for the lame written tests during the next 2 weeks. Should write it here so that I can always see the friggin dates wherever I go.

Computing Principles on the 4th of June.
Finite Maths right after Computing Principles.
Intermediate English on the 8th of June.
Malaysian Studies on the 11th of June.

Why can't Finite Maths be the last one? Nefarious, very. There's a whole load of reading to be done for Computing Principles but I really don't mind. It's so much fun reading rather than figuring out graphs and numbers. May God bless me on that day so that I won't suffer from a heart failure and die.

Got a text msg from mom saying that her boss was diagnosed with flu cancer. His wife passed away last year because of cancer and now he has cancer as well. Sad but true. What IS the main cause of this? Why do we not see such silent killers way back when our great grandparents were alive? Hopefully the drugs and therapy will be able to help him get better.

It's the 28th. Terminator : Salvation will be out and supposedly, Dragonica OBT starts today. Gotta cross my fingers. Can't wait to get my hands on the game and force Eric to play as well. Anyone interested should sign up here and wait for them to announce OBT. =D If you're still playing Maple, please dump that game for good and take a look at Dragonica. You wouldn't be disappointed. Maple is atrociously mundane. Btw, is anyone interested in playing Gunbound? It has been practically 4 years since I last played that game. Not only I suck at it, I've also forgotten my password for my old account. Anyone who's interested should msg me on MSN, yours truly doesn't like playing with strangers.

I'm off to watch Crank : High Voltage.
Jason Statham is so fucking ripped.

annoyance

2009-05-20T20:29:00.000+08:00

I'm not a nature lover but sometimes people should really live certain places alone. Damn them. I took this photo from the balcony. Btw, I live near the forest. So as you can see, there's a brown path now. A few months ago, there were only trees, only trees. Thick green trees. Most probably that's what makes this place such an ideal home. Away from the city, away from the noise, away from the pollution. It's breezy most of the time. With this stupid new development project, this place will turn into another rotten hell. I cannot imagine how much noise and dust there will be when they start building a new apartment there. Screw you people. Dad said he wants to move to a far far away place. Right. Keep moving here and there? There'll be no end. Humans keep looking for forests and end up destroying them.

Currently playing Rock Band : Unplugged. Can't really play music games for long hours but I like having them on my psp because I can kill time while I'm waiting for minor stuff such as food. The game is quite "buggy". Most probably because it's a leaked version, not that I'm complaining. However, it is rather annoying when it hangs everytime I switch off the psp without closing the game. The tracklist is pretty solid :

2000s

* AFI - “Miss Murder” *
* All-American Rejects - “Move Along”
* Audioslave - “Gasoline” *
* Black Tide -”Show Me the Way” *
* Freezepop - “Less Talk More Rokk” *
* Jimmy Eat World - “The Middle” The
* Killers - “Mr. Brightside”
* Lacuna Coil - “Our Truth”
* Lamb of God - “Laid to Rest”
* Modest Mouse - “Float On”
* Queens of the Stone Age - “3’s and 7’s”
* System of a Down - “Chop Suey!”
* Tenacious D - “Rock Your Socks” *

1990s

* 3 Doors Down - “Kryptonite” *
* Alice in Chains - “Would?” *
* Blink 182 - “What’s My Age Again” *
* Foo Fighters - “Everlong”
* Judas Priest - “Painkiller”
* Lit - “My Own Worst Enemy”
* Lush - “De-Luxe”
* Mighty Mighty Bosstones - “Where’d You Go?”
* Nine Inch Nails - “The Perfect Drug”
* Nirvana - “Drain You”
* The Offspring - “Come Out and Play (Keep ‘em Separated)”
* Pearl Jam - “Alive”
* Smashing Pumpkins - “Today”
* Social Distortion - “I Was Wrong”
* Soundgarden - “Spoonman”
* Weezer - “Buddy Holly”

1980s

* Billy Idol - “White Wedding Part 1″
* Bon Jovi - “Livin’ on a Prayer”
* Dead Kennedys - “Holiday in Cambodia”
* Motörhead - “Ace of Spades”
* The Police - “Message in a Bottle”
* Siouxsie & the Banshees - “The Killing Jar”

1970s

* Boston - “More Than a Feeling”
* Jackson 5 - “ABC” *
* Jethro Tull - “Aqualung”
* Kansas - “Carry on Wayward Son”
* Rush - “The Trees”

1960s

* The Who - “Pinball Wizard”

DLC

# 30 Seconds to Mars “The Kill”
# Belly “Feed the Tree”
# Disturbed “Inside the Fire”
# Lynyrd Skynyrd “Gimme Three Steps”
# Muse “Hysteria”
# Mute Math “Typical”
# No Doubt “Just a Girl”
# Oasis “Wonderwall”
# Paramore “Crushcrushcrush”
# Red Hot Chili Peppers “Under the Bridge”

At the beginner stage, n00bs can only access a few songs but the starter songs include Bon Jovi's Livin' On A Prayer and The Police's Message In A Bottle. Both are my all time favorites.

After playing DJ Max for a few months, there is something that I can conclude when I try RB. The learning curve for DJ Max is much tougher compared to Rock Band. The speed is insane. Rock Band is easier but requires a lot of accuracy as players can't simply smash all the buttons. DJ Max allows player to smash all the buttons but I guess only cheap players will abuse that. I find DJ Max funner but RB has better music. Rock & Roll never dies. DJ Max's music gets boring after awhile. However, if I were to choose only one, I'd go for DJ Max. Asian games ftw. =D

It's almost week 5. Will be having quiz or whatever others call it, written test, for each subject. Finite Maths is still a mystery to me. Something that I think I will never be able to comprehend. Yeah, that's what I thought until I saw the notes that my friend has. Her lecturer actually gives clear and detail notes for each chapter. I got so excited, went to purchase them as well. They're actually better than the current ones that I have. Hopefully they'll help. Apparently her class is really slow, but who cares, as long as you guys get what she's teaching right? Tch, not like my class. Zoop zoop, fast as lightning but we're left with question marks above our heads, especially me. Not only I have a question mark above my head, my whole face looks like a fucking question mark. Not that I'm criticising my FM lecturer. She's good but she's just really fast. I guess she falls under the category "those who are really PRO but not good at explaining". Somehow I really have the urge to change classes but it's already too late. Fuck it. Just gotta bear with this for the whole sem.

Several things which happened today made me think, will my surreptitious moments of bliss still last? ...

a blackened soul

2009-05-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

Anyone who's Anti Barbie here?
I just realized how much I hate Barbie. Yeah, you know, that stick figure that practically every single little girl dreams to be? I find that toy sickening, very. Didn't know there's an Anti Barbie site. Visit the ANTI BARBIE CLUB, if you're interested. Went to pick up a birthday gift for dad's friend's daughter. He asked me to help him choose but, damn, do I look like I know how to choose the ideal gift for a 5 year old girl? When I was at her age, I was playing Power Rangers and Transformers and Lego. Barbie was... mehhh. Banal. If I'm not wrong, I only have 1 or 2 Barbie dolls. Never touched them more than twice. No offense if you like Barbie but I find Barbie stupid. So anyway, we were walking around the Barbie section.

Me : Please don't buy Barbie. It's expensive. Plus, Barbie is stupid.
*a girl walks past and starts to look at the latest Barbie dolls*
Dad : Aiyer, so bad lah you. Say until so loud. That girl wants to buy Barbie dolls.

I don't feel bad. Barbies ARE stupid. There are soooo many better toys in this world. Plasticine for instance. I could play plasticine all day long without getting bored. The plasticine world is a world of endless possibilities. If you have really bad imagination and bad hands, you might find it boring. Boo. (in the end we bought Plasticine. Plasticine ftw)

Gahhh, currently not in a good mood. Annoyed. Pissed for no reason. TV2 is showing Terminator 2. Yeah, most probably they're showing it because Terminator : Salvation will be released by the end of this month. Screw it, they should show Terminator : The Sarah Connor Chronicles instead. Major Boo.

And why is it everyone's getting so hyped up with Angels & Demons? Not that I haven't watched it. It's good but isn't it a little overrated? Great soundtrack though. The movie managed to reignite my interest in the Illuminati. Believe it or not people, it exists, among us. Too bad I lost most of my ebooks on the Illuminati.

I'm actually really excited about Marilyn Manson's new album. The singles so far are pretty good. Arma-God-Damn-Mother-Fucking-Geddon. What a song title. Lol. Seems like it'll be more sadistic and dark. Just the type of thing that I'm in the mood for. May 26th is the day.

One last thing, Happy Teachers Day to all teachers and pretty lecturers. *winks*

what does via dolorosa mean?

2009-05-14T00:55:00.000+08:00

I want but I can't afford. You know what I'm saving for.

During Malaysian Studies, we discussed the issue why females have longer life expectancy compared to males. Apparently males keep a lot of problems to themselves, they have been taught to be strong and not reveal much of their emotions because males are often being referred to the strong and dominant figure. How far is it true in today's society? I'm saying this because as everything around us evolves, human beings are much different compared to those who lived in centuries ago. Males today can be as sensitive as females. I'm not saying all, maybe some of them and sometimes such sensitivity gets annoying. Wussy. However I do not concur that's the main cause. For females, we too have introvert types who don't really express themselves much. So why do they still live longer?

Anyway the lecturer encouraged us to blog more. In other words, to express ourselves, or rant more through our blogs so that we don't keep everything inside. Personally I find her point very funny. Her point was more blogging (more pointless rantings) = longer life expectancy.

Minor things can mean a lot to people. I'm starting to enjoy Study Skills because the lecturer seems to be quite considerate and sensitive to us (sensitive in a good way). I'm not surprised that she's good at this since she took Psychology. Sometimes I feel like such a badass because I don't really look at her even when she greets me. Lol. I should start being nicer. She made this statement today, which really means a lot to someone like me because we're all living in a homophobic society.

...during your group assignments, I want you to treat your group members fairly regardless of their age, race, and sexual orientation...

It might mean nothing to you but to a gay blogger, it means a lot. This shows that good people still exist in today's cruel world. Small things like that gives hope.

Has anyone experience weird dreams after reading?
Weird dreams have been visiting me lately ever since I started reading Red Dragon last week. It's not some disgusting dream with gory contents but the feeling when I wake up is pretty inexplicable. It feels weird, like I don't belong or exist in reality. In some way, it freaks me out a little. Is this normal? Or abnormal? I'm just curious.

Anyway today was a great day that's why I'm blogging for no particular reason. It would be even greater if someone dropped by to visit me instead of shopping in Sunway Pyramid.

why is monday the first day of the week?

2009-05-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

a big HAPPY MOTHER's DAY to my dearest mom.

Did not really celebrate with her due to a few reasons. Mainly because she was busy and it wasn't convenient for everyone of us to go out for a big "makan" session. So sorry for not getting a gift because it'd be a waste to get something that will end up as a white elephant. So lets just KIV it okay? Don't know why as I start typing out this post, I'm starting to miss my mom. Haha. And also, Happy Mother's Day to my god mom who's having fun in China.

Grandpa is also getting better. He was able to stand up and walk a bit during the 3rd day after operation, which is such amazing recovery. Hopefully he'll be back to his strong self soon so that he wouldn't need to rot at home so much. I'm not used to seeing him being so quiet and laying in bed all day long.

Tomorrow will be the third week of college life but I'm already quite worried. My fear is back. Numbers. They're ridiculously scary. Deceptive. Complex. And I also fear my the Finite Maths lecturer. Why does she teach soooo fast and ask people out to do? We're not in secondary or primary. *sulks* I can't even understand Functions. Yes, I'm helpless and very stupid when it comes to Maths. Laugh. Mock. Tch. Sooner or later I'll need to hire a personal tutor.

Went over to Uncle Marcus's house for dinner and saw Ian boy. Tried snapping a good photo of him but he kept playing with his Ben 10 toys.

Have the sudden urge to start watching Forensic Heroes just to see Linda Chung but it's already quite late now. Thus, I'm annoyed. Yes, I'm annoyed when I don't have enough time. And yes, you may laugh because I'm always watching old series. =p

keep it to yourself

2009-05-09T21:19:00.000+08:00

It's utterly disgusting how you insult people's dreams and aspirations. It's disgusting because you simply label it as something negative and terrible, yet at the same time you have no idea it takes hard work to achieve it. If you really think it's so ugly then you people should just keep your shit comments to yourself. People with such aspirations do not need your crappy comments. Truth be told, you can't really deter others by voicing out such harsh remarks. If you think it's something so ugly, why don't you try doing it yourself? Try achieving something similar? What were you doing while you were at my age?

Not that I think highly of myself but it's the truth that such thing requires consistency, discipline and effort. It's alright if you're not supporting me. It's alright you're not providing me with the necessary tools to do so but it's totally not acceptable when someone insults something like that over and over again. Keep those insults to yourself. No one wants to know. Take a look at yourself before insulting. Just because you're not exposed to that field itself, you should not voice out your opinions. You only make yourself sound more like a fool. A 101% noob. I wonder why people never do research before trying to give advice? Basically, your advice equals to zero because you talk without any substance. It's based on mere assumption.

Sick of this. I don't think I'd like to explain anymore because you people never get it. People need to be more exposed to the western cultures, especially health and fitness. Dumb. Bet it's heaven when I stay alone. Everything is possible. Screw it. No idea why I am getting so pissed off because of this. Maybe it's because of the heat. Maybe because I'm craving for jelly. Maybe because time and over again they've annoyed me with such stupid remarks. Maybe yes, because I'm sensitive? But so what? Screw it.

Moving away from my pointless ranting, I'm actually quite glad to see Foong Vai and Leong today. Haven't seen them in ages. Wish they'll go to KL soon. Finally got to watch Wolverine. This time, the strings attached to them aren't visible. Teehee.

Suddenly I feel much better when I think of my IE classes. =D

mr G please leave me alone

2009-05-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

Fucking hate gastric.

Makes me feel old. Timing a bit off then gastric visits me. What a loyal friend.

First day attending lectures. It was a bit boring and very very tiring. Fortunately I only have to wake up at 6++ once per week. Out of the 3 lectures that were conducted today, Computing Principles was the most enjoyable. Mr. Siva has a wicked sense of humor. His 2 hours lecture beats Finite Maths which was only 1 hour and 30 minutes. I forgot what he was talking about but he was trying to relate this; to something.

My friend told me this guy was going out with another guy. Eh, gay lah. So I was like, so? You wanna make an issue out of it? What's wrong? For example you like KFC, she likes McDonalds, he likes Pepsi, I like Coke, but that guy likes guys. It's that simple.

It's as simple as that. Why must people make a fuss out of such trivial matters? It's subjective. I truly believe that many people nowadays are "pansexual".

Ahh, and I'm trying to find more series which has Linda Chung in it. Suggestions? I'm fuming over here because dad and aunt are taking over the dvd player. They're watching the isudahlupathefulltitle-Zohan movie. I wanna watch my tvb series! I'm soooo not me nowadays. Truth be told, sometimes I'm a bit afraid of myself.

so not eventful

2009-05-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

What's the purpose of ambulances?

We've been taught to give way to them, how important they are, etc. It's a matter of life and death, so why are those drivers so annoyingly lackadaisical? Tch. Seriously, they need to improve. Grandpa fell down from the chair this morning. He fell backwards. We didn't know which parts of his body weren't okay but it was pretty obvious he couldn't stand or walk. Thus we had to phone the ambulance. They asked one thousand and one pointless questions. My goodness. Then they asked for the address. It was such a pain explaining to them so mom and aunt drove to one of the nearby restaurants to lead them to our house. People, we're not living in the STONE AGE, I wonder why they don't practise using GPS? This really explains how we're not fully utilizing technology. When the first ambulance arrived, they said, "..not this house, we're from Batu Gajah, so we'll be leaving..". Wow, I'm so impressed by their attitude. Mom and aunt had to drive out again to meet another ambulance. Such level of stupidity actually exists. B-o-d-o-h.

I just realized how stunning Linda Chung is. *drools*

What's the perfect Mother's Day gift?
And I'm actually a bit happy. Will be watching The Red Baron soon when I have the time. More LH. On a random note, I'm looking forward to Tuesday. *grins*

hotcakes are ...

2009-04-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

Second day attending college. Ain't that bad. Everyone says college/uni life is the best? Is it? I'm not sure how true is that. Being skeptical again. Whole week is hell except for tomorrow because it starts at 12. Fortunately from next week onwards, I'll just have to wake up early for once. Would not be able to survive if I have to wake up at 6 plus every day. Such a torture. I'm immensely amazed at how I can only sleep for 3 hours during high school then wake up at 5. Am I getting old? That's why I can no longer do that? Shit.

Meh, today was so embarrassing. Lecturer gave us only 3 minutes to get to know the people sitting around us. Then she asked us ludicrous questions such as has he/she committed a crime? Who was her first crush? If he were to listen to one cd for the rest of his life, which cd would it be? So yours truly couldn't answer her crazy questions. Those who failed to answer had to go out to the front and spell the word English with our butts. Tch.

I also think I'm starting to have hearing problems because when the lecturer was talking about Theory of Sets, I kept hearing Theory of SEX instead. Almost laughed out loud. Terrible.

Watched the interview with Lena Headey. Absolutely adorable. I NEED TSCC NOW. She reminds me a bit of Leisha in this interview. I guess it's the hair. Still, she looks fantastic.

I want TSCC

2009-04-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

Went to Pyramid with Ken-Ann. Ate a lot. As I typed the word ATE, I just realized that I did not have rice the whole day. What a great achievement because I'm such a big fan of rice. "Fan tung"

I'm quite elated.
But, at the same time a bit disappointed because something that I want so badly is out of stock. Idiotic. I bet they deliberately ordered those action figurines in such a small amount just because DMC is not so commercialized here in Malaysia. Stupid. I want one DMC action figurine soooo badly. The bearbrick version looks super adorable too.

They should not display this huge thing if they don't sell it. When I asked the salesman whether they sell the "DMC figure", he had no idea what I was talking about. He was looking at me as if I was bullshitting. Dumb. You display something big right there but you don't know the origins?

On a brighter note, she was being extra sweet today; bought me a copy of Final Fantasy Distant Worlds. Great CD. I'm currently listening to it as I blog. Fucking amazing music from Nobuo Uematsu, a compilation of the greatest songs from FF games, all orchestrated versions. Bloody wonderful. I'm in seventh heaven. Few of the songs brings back memories during my primary years.

Watched Confessions of a Shopaholic. Did not expect it to be good. Thought it was some typical suck ass chick flick. I was wrong because it was really amusing. Profoundly funny. Could not stop laughing. Dad is complaining as I blog because he doesn't know how to appreciate orchestra music. Too bad for him.

And I'm still not over Lena Headey. Why is she so hot? =)

a new turn

2009-04-24T15:00:00.000+08:00

It has been a really long weekend. Came down to KL together with mom. This time, she left without me. It felt a tad strange but I have to get used to it. Will be missing my mom so much. (homophobic mom) lol. Spent the whole week getting necessary stuff. Tedious. Stalked the bus for 2 days just to figure out the timing and the exact route. Woke up 8.30 this morning just to try taking the bus. Dad calls it a test run. Whole journey takes 1 hour but dad was too busy reading newspaper, we missed one stop and we had to take another 50 minutes plus to get back to the first station. Bus trips are sooooo fucking boring. Now I really appreciate what my mom and grandpa have been doing for me for the past 11 years. Going by car is so much faster, comfortable and convenient. And I think that bus fare is something that should not exist in this era. I can still recall the buses in Australia. Clean. FOC. Best of all, the drivers are very polite and considerate. What do we get here? We pay but we get dirty buses (okay maybe not THAT dirty), but they're ridiculously rude.

Anyway, has anyone watched the leak version of X-Men Origins : Wolverine?

Great movie I must say. Could not stop watching it because like I said, it's great. If you have a copy of it, do yourself a favor, do not touch it. Dump it into the bin because the best scenes are all incomplete. I'll re-watch it when it gets released in Malaysia, which is either end of this month or early May (hopefully).

After months of searching, I gave up. I thought I'll never be able to watch the movie version of DMC. Surprisingly I found a mp4 format of the movie, converted specially for the psp. Was laughing throughout the movie. It's really not bad because they had to fit most stuff from the manga into a short movie. Ken'ichi did a great job. He looks dorky but when he "transforms" into Krauser (the character on the left), he's really freaky and funny. In case you think that his name sounds familiar, yes, he's the dude from Death Note. Metal has never been this funny.

it's frustrating

2009-04-15T00:59:00.000+08:00

CS3 sucks, sucks, sucks. What were the developers thinking? Every single user uses the latest pc? Bloody thing crashes so often just because it's not meant to run on Athlon. Seriously, they can go suck it. Now I'm compelled to downgrade to CS2. How stupid.

Watched Imagine Me & You for the second time today because I was so fed up. I've developed a crush on one of the main characters, played by Lena Headey. Thus, I'm so gonna get myself a copy of the tv series of Terminator just to see her. =)

Anyone watched Far North? One of the sickest movies I've ever watched, the ending especially. Would you kill your step daughter? Then cut our her face? Then put it on your face as a human mask? Then have sex with your step daughter's boyfriend? So that's what humans will do when lust consumes them. Or maybe greedy? Jealousy? It's sick.

Leaving Ipoh in 3 days time. Mom kept asking me whether I'll miss the house. She told me to take photos of my current bedroom. How funny.

he said I look old

2009-04-10T21:19:00.000+08:00

My mom gets emo every time she listens to the song Carry You Home, by James Blunt. Apparently the lyrics reminds her a lot of her brother who passed away 2 years back. She gets very emo and sometimes I can't stand it. Earlier this evening, she said I'm a selfish brat because I did not experience how it was like growing up with siblings, the bond, the things that they share, the interaction. True, I don't get to experience that but I don't think that makes me a selfish brat. The word 'selfish' doesn't really suit my situation. It's hard to describe. I'm not utterly cold or selfish or pompous. Crystal can get really emotional sometimes and that's scary and you might think I got possessed by some spirit or something. Truth be told, I don't like getting emotional. When you get too emotional, other people gets all these negative vibes from you. You're affecting others.

Has anyone noticed most of the great guitarists'(mostly) or musicians' name starts with J?

Jimi Hendrix
Joe Satriani
Jack White
Jason Mraz
Jeff Beck
John Mayer
Jack Johnson

...and many others (indie ones) which are not listed here. I find it quite interesting. Maybe it has got something to do with the alphabet J. I'll make a mental note to give my kid a name which starts with J(if I ever decide to have one).

Crystal likes today. =)

cold water surrounds me

2009-04-07T01:13:00.000+08:00

Insomnia is a combination of inconvenience and waste of time.

Lately, I've been listening to Damien Rice's songs from the older albums. One of them, entitled Amie, is such a beautiful song. This just struck me 30 minutes ago. It's not my first time listening to the song but it's the first time I actually paid attention to the violins, acoustics, and the lyrics. Funny. It's the same in life. It takes time to realize that you're being surrounded by something great. For some people, it takes years, ages.

I saw a spaceship fly by your window
did you see it disappear?

Amie come sit on my wall and read me the story of Of O
Tell it like you still believe that the end of the century brings a change for you and me

Nothing unusual nothing's changed
Just a little older that's all

Mom bought a 160 gb external hd for herself. She said it's necessary for her to copy all her data so that she can bring them to KL. Necessary? Not so. I still think we should exchange. She'll do fine with my old crappy 80 gb external hd. Then I'll have more space to store my discographies and lgbt movies. Keep dreaming.

saving face

2009-04-03T14:35:00.000+08:00

Took me 2 months to download this movie (torrent dl). I'm so glad I didn't stop halfway because of the small amount of seeds. It was as if it'll take forever to complete. The movie was released in 2004. I still remember watching an interview with these ladies on our local tv channel. It was very short but they did show several clips from the movie.

Anyways, it's such a fucking awesome movie. I've watched it twice. Watched it yesterday and I just watched it an hour ago. Crystal can be so scary sometimes. =o

What makes it special? It's an American Chinese romantic comedy. Romance + comedy = greatness, because there's no unnecessary bullshit, which also means no unnecessary crying. It's 50% in english, 50% in mandarin. Fortunately it comes with subtitles because most funny lines are in mandarin. Back to the story, it focuses on a surgeon who fell in love with a ballerina. Besides, surgeon's mom is in her late 40s and she just got pregnant. Everyone is shocked, without any clue who's the man responsible for the baby. Basically the movie's theme is more to being brave enough to love regardless of the age, gender, etc.

The movie is easy to relate to because of the cultural aspects. I'm a chinese, they're chinese. The taboos, etc., I've heard, watched...experienced them before. Next great thing about this movie, it's not those lustful kinda lgbt movies. People, watch this movie even though you're not gay. It's available on youtube. Just watch it for educational purpose. Did I mention that Will Smith produced this movie? =) and one last thing, the actresses are hot.

waaaaahaaiiii

2009-04-01T19:59:00.000+08:00

Crisis Core's ending was too overwhelming. Thus yours truly decided to make a cover of the song used for the ending theme.

..and Happy April's Fool people! =)

i'm not edible

2009-03-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

Familiar? HAHAHA. I'm sooooooo fucking elated. Have been trying to run this for days. So many trials and errors but it's worth it. It's finally working. Sephiroth must be looking after me. *smirks*

Finished CC today. Ending was really epic, credits as well. Managed to clean my eyes. It has been ages since my last "cleaning up".

And because I'm in sucha good mood today, more random photos;

.ramenbox eating ramen.

Grandpa's dog who acts like a crazy wolf. Scary, no?

Saw 2 "disgusting species" today. First, a guy, he was drinking his tapao-ed teh ais. Nothing's wrong but he was using his straw to "floss his teeth" and worst, his expression was like damn syok. Someone needs to tell him he's in a public place. Second, there was this primary girl who was queuing up to pay for her pack of cheese. While queuing up, she kept biting her fingernails. Biting + grinning to herself at the same time. I can't really stand people who does it so obvious and so often. People..

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This year, the world's first global election is taking place, an election between earth and global warming. It's not about what country you are from, but what planet you are from. Your light switch is your vote. We need one billion votes for earth, because our planet is worth saving. Vote Earth by simply switching off your lights for one hour and join the world for Earth Hour. Saturday march 28th, 8:30-9:30pm.

Oh wells, somebody said I should ad Earth Hour 2009. Yes I'm selfish I still do care a bit for the earth because I'm still living here for .. most probably 80 more years? =D so everyone should make Earth a better place.

Did an acoustic cover of Big Bang's Everything. It's quite lame but I just can't help it. *hides*

If your ears can tolerate it, more videos can be found here.