you are an ant in the afterbirth

Egyptians worshiping the cat. Frankly, I find this very disturbing yet impressive. I consider cats to be wicked creatures but the Egyptians worshiped the cats because these cats were consider sacred. And they even mummified the cats when they were dead. Guess what, they even shavedd off their eyebrows during the mourning period when their cats passed away. Just got to know stuff like these earlier this afternoon while I was doing research for the assignment. Would like to say thanks, much thanks to Zhen Min who gave me many interesting keywords and ideas. *kao tao to Zhen Min*

So a huge part of my day was gone doing that. Earlier in the morning, Dad and I was cleaning the house because my mom, otherwise known as the Queen will be coming down in the evening. I just saw her last week but I'm still very happy to see her. I guess it's true that most kids are just closer to their moms instead of their daddys. *grins* she'll be coming down in August and I know that life will be much better with her around because ...c'mon, we all know moms are better at food. Heh.

On a random note, I'm loving my Sonic Gear Ear Pump earphones. Great quality at such an affordable price. Unlike other overrated brands, pay a huge amount of money and get shitty quality. The noise isolation technology is not bad for less than 50 bucks. Apart from that, the bass is pretty good. The most important thing is I can hear the whole track clearly even when I'm walking by the roadside or travelling on the highway or when somebody else is blasting the stereo. It's really gratifying when the moment you put on those earphones, the whole atmosphere changes because of the music you're playing from your own audio player. Imagine playing Vitas's Lucia di Lamermor while crossing the road. Sometimes I TRY hard, not to listen to such exciting music while crossing the road, I might be focusing too much on the notes and end up being knocked down by a car. Bloody hell.

Manson's new album is TEH SHIT

Time passes too quickly. Will be sitting for the lame written tests during the next 2 weeks. Should write it here so that I can always see the friggin dates wherever I go.

1. Computing Principles on the 4th of June.
2. Finite Maths right after Computing Principles.
3. Intermediate English on the 8th of June.
4. Malaysian Studies on the 11th of June.

Why can't Finite Maths be the last one? Nefarious, very. There's a whole load of reading to be done for Computing Principles but I really don't mind. It's so much fun reading rather than figuring out graphs and numbers. May God bless me on that day so that I won't suffer from a heart failure and die.

Got a text msg from mom saying that her boss was diagnosed with flu cancer. His wife passed away last year because of cancer and now he has cancer as well. Sad but true. What IS the main cause of this? Why do we not see such silent killers way back when our great grandparents were alive? Hopefully the drugs and therapy will be able to help him get better.

It's the 28th. Terminator : Salvation will be out and supposedly, Dragonica OBT starts today. Gotta cross my fingers. Can't wait to get my hands on the game and force Eric to play as well. Anyone interested should sign up here and wait for them to announce OBT. =D If you're still playing Maple, please dump that game for good and take a look at Dragonica. You wouldn't be disappointed. Maple is atrociously mundane. Btw, is anyone interested in playing Gunbound? It has been practically 4 years since I last played that game. Not only I suck at it, I've also forgotten my password for my old account. Anyone who's interested should msg me on MSN, yours truly doesn't like playing with strangers.

I'm off to watch Crank : High Voltage.
Jason Statham is so fucking ripped.

annoyance

I'm not a nature lover but sometimes people should really live certain places alone. Damn them. I took this photo from the balcony. Btw, I live near the forest. So as you can see, there's a brown path now. A few months ago, there were only trees, only trees. Thick green trees. Most probably that's what makes this place such an ideal home. Away from the city, away from the noise, away from the pollution. It's breezy most of the time. With this stupid new development project, this place will turn into another rotten hell. I cannot imagine how much noise and dust there will be when they start building a new apartment there. Screw you people. Dad said he wants to move to a far far away place. Right. Keep moving here and there? There'll be no end. Humans keep looking for forests and end up destroying them.


Currently playing Rock Band : Unplugged. Can't really play music games for long hours but I like having them on my psp because I can kill time while I'm waiting for minor stuff such as food. The game is quite "buggy". Most probably because it's a leaked version, not that I'm complaining. However, it is rather annoying when it hangs everytime I switch off the psp without closing the game. The tracklist is pretty solid :

2000s

* AFI - “Miss Murder” *
* All-American Rejects - “Move Along”
* Audioslave - “Gasoline” *
* Black Tide -”Show Me the Way” *
* Freezepop - “Less Talk More Rokk” *
* Jimmy Eat World - “The Middle” The
* Killers - “Mr. Brightside”
* Lacuna Coil - “Our Truth”
* Lamb of God - “Laid to Rest”
* Modest Mouse - “Float On”
* Queens of the Stone Age - “3’s and 7’s”
* System of a Down - “Chop Suey!”
* Tenacious D - “Rock Your Socks” *

1990s

* 3 Doors Down - “Kryptonite” *
* Alice in Chains - “Would?” *
* Blink 182 - “What’s My Age Again” *
* Foo Fighters - “Everlong”
* Judas Priest - “Painkiller”
* Lit - “My Own Worst Enemy”
* Lush - “De-Luxe”
* Mighty Mighty Bosstones - “Where’d You Go?”
* Nine Inch Nails - “The Perfect Drug”
* Nirvana - “Drain You”
* The Offspring - “Come Out and Play (Keep ‘em Separated)”
* Pearl Jam - “Alive”
* Smashing Pumpkins - “Today”
* Social Distortion - “I Was Wrong”
* Soundgarden - “Spoonman”
* Weezer - “Buddy Holly”

1980s

* Billy Idol - “White Wedding Part 1″
* Bon Jovi - “Livin’ on a Prayer”
* Dead Kennedys - “Holiday in Cambodia”
* Motörhead - “Ace of Spades”
* The Police - “Message in a Bottle”
* Siouxsie & the Banshees - “The Killing Jar”

1970s

* Boston - “More Than a Feeling”
* Jackson 5 - “ABC” *
* Jethro Tull - “Aqualung”
* Kansas - “Carry on Wayward Son”
* Rush - “The Trees”

1960s

* The Who - “Pinball Wizard”

DLC

# 30 Seconds to Mars “The Kill”
# Belly “Feed the Tree”
# Disturbed “Inside the Fire”
# Lynyrd Skynyrd “Gimme Three Steps”
# Muse “Hysteria”
# Mute Math “Typical”
# No Doubt “Just a Girl”
# Oasis “Wonderwall”
# Paramore “Crushcrushcrush”
# Red Hot Chili Peppers “Under the Bridge”

At the beginner stage, n00bs can only access a few songs but the starter songs include Bon Jovi's Livin' On A Prayer and The Police's Message In A Bottle. Both are my all time favorites.

After playing DJ Max for a few months, there is something that I can conclude when I try RB. The learning curve for DJ Max is much tougher compared to Rock Band. The speed is insane. Rock Band is easier but requires a lot of accuracy as players can't simply smash all the buttons. DJ Max allows player to smash all the buttons but I guess only cheap players will abuse that. I find DJ Max funner but RB has better music. Rock & Roll never dies. DJ Max's music gets boring after awhile. However, if I were to choose only one, I'd go for DJ Max. Asian games ftw. =D

It's almost week 5. Will be having quiz or whatever others call it, written test, for each subject. Finite Maths is still a mystery to me. Something that I think I will never be able to comprehend. Yeah, that's what I thought until I saw the notes that my friend has. Her lecturer actually gives clear and detail notes for each chapter. I got so excited, went to purchase them as well. They're actually better than the current ones that I have. Hopefully they'll help. Apparently her class is really slow, but who cares, as long as you guys get what she's teaching right? Tch, not like my class. Zoop zoop, fast as lightning but we're left with question marks above our heads, especially me. Not only I have a question mark above my head, my whole face looks like a fucking question mark. Not that I'm criticising my FM lecturer. She's good but she's just really fast. I guess she falls under the category "those who are really PRO but not good at explaining". Somehow I really have the urge to change classes but it's already too late. Fuck it. Just gotta bear with this for the whole sem.

Several things which happened today made me think, will my surreptitious moments of bliss still last? ...

a blackened soul

Anyone who's Anti Barbie here?
I just realized how much I hate Barbie. Yeah, you know, that stick figure that practically every single little girl dreams to be? I find that toy sickening, very. Didn't know there's an Anti Barbie site. Visit the ANTI BARBIE CLUB, if you're interested. Went to pick up a birthday gift for dad's friend's daughter. He asked me to help him choose but, damn, do I look like I know how to choose the ideal gift for a 5 year old girl? When I was at her age, I was playing Power Rangers and Transformers and Lego. Barbie was... mehhh. Banal. If I'm not wrong, I only have 1 or 2 Barbie dolls. Never touched them more than twice. No offense if you like Barbie but I find Barbie stupid. So anyway, we were walking around the Barbie section.

Me : Please don't buy Barbie. It's expensive. Plus, Barbie is stupid.
*a girl walks past and starts to look at the latest Barbie dolls*
Dad : Aiyer, so bad lah you. Say until so loud. That girl wants to buy Barbie dolls.

I don't feel bad. Barbies ARE stupid. There are soooo many better toys in this world. Plasticine for instance. I could play plasticine all day long without getting bored. The plasticine world is a world of endless possibilities. If you have really bad imagination and bad hands, you might find it boring. Boo. (in the end we bought Plasticine. Plasticine ftw)

Gahhh, currently not in a good mood. Annoyed. Pissed for no reason. TV2 is showing Terminator 2. Yeah, most probably they're showing it because Terminator : Salvation will be released by the end of this month. Screw it, they should show Terminator : The Sarah Connor Chronicles instead. Major Boo.

And why is it everyone's getting so hyped up with Angels & Demons? Not that I haven't watched it. It's good but isn't it a little overrated? Great soundtrack though. The movie managed to reignite my interest in the Illuminati. Believe it or not people, it exists, among us. Too bad I lost most of my ebooks on the Illuminati.

I'm actually really excited about Marilyn Manson's new album. The singles so far are pretty good. Arma-God-Damn-Mother-Fucking-Geddon. What a song title. Lol. Seems like it'll be more sadistic and dark. Just the type of thing that I'm in the mood for. May 26th is the day.


One last thing, Happy Teachers Day to all teachers and pretty lecturers. *winks*

what does via dolorosa mean?

I want but I can't afford. You know what I'm saving for.

During Malaysian Studies, we discussed the issue why females have longer life expectancy compared to males. Apparently males keep a lot of problems to themselves, they have been taught to be strong and not reveal much of their emotions because males are often being referred to the strong and dominant figure. How far is it true in today's society? I'm saying this because as everything around us evolves, human beings are much different compared to those who lived in centuries ago. Males today can be as sensitive as females. I'm not saying all, maybe some of them and sometimes such sensitivity gets annoying. Wussy. However I do not concur that's the main cause. For females, we too have introvert types who don't really express themselves much. So why do they still live longer?

Anyway the lecturer encouraged us to blog more. In other words, to express ourselves, or rant more through our blogs so that we don't keep everything inside. Personally I find her point very funny. Her point was more blogging (more pointless rantings) = longer life expectancy.

Minor things can mean a lot to people. I'm starting to enjoy Study Skills because the lecturer seems to be quite considerate and sensitive to us (sensitive in a good way). I'm not surprised that she's good at this since she took Psychology. Sometimes I feel like such a badass because I don't really look at her even when she greets me. Lol. I should start being nicer. She made this statement today, which really means a lot to someone like me because we're all living in a homophobic society.

...during your group assignments, I want you to treat your group members fairly regardless of their age, race, and sexual orientation...

It might mean nothing to you but to a gay blogger, it means a lot. This shows that good people still exist in today's cruel world. Small things like that gives hope.


Has anyone experience weird dreams after reading?
Weird dreams have been visiting me lately ever since I started reading Red Dragon last week. It's not some disgusting dream with gory contents but the feeling when I wake up is pretty inexplicable. It feels weird, like I don't belong or exist in reality. In some way, it freaks me out a little. Is this normal? Or abnormal? I'm just curious.

Anyway today was a great day that's why I'm blogging for no particular reason. It would be even greater if someone dropped by to visit me instead of shopping in Sunway Pyramid.

why is monday the first day of the week?

a big HAPPY MOTHER's DAY to my dearest mom.

Did not really celebrate with her due to a few reasons. Mainly because she was busy and it wasn't convenient for everyone of us to go out for a big "makan" session. So sorry for not getting a gift because it'd be a waste to get something that will end up as a white elephant. So lets just KIV it okay? Don't know why as I start typing out this post, I'm starting to miss my mom. Haha. And also, Happy Mother's Day to my god mom who's having fun in China.

Grandpa is also getting better. He was able to stand up and walk a bit during the 3rd day after operation, which is such amazing recovery. Hopefully he'll be back to his strong self soon so that he wouldn't need to rot at home so much. I'm not used to seeing him being so quiet and laying in bed all day long.

Tomorrow will be the third week of college life but I'm already quite worried. My fear is back. Numbers. They're ridiculously scary. Deceptive. Complex. And I also fear my the Finite Maths lecturer. Why does she teach soooo fast and ask people out to do? We're not in secondary or primary. *sulks* I can't even understand Functions. Yes, I'm helpless and very stupid when it comes to Maths. Laugh. Mock. Tch. Sooner or later I'll need to hire a personal tutor.

Went over to Uncle Marcus's house for dinner and saw Ian boy. Tried snapping a good photo of him but he kept playing with his Ben 10 toys.

Have the sudden urge to start watching Forensic Heroes just to see Linda Chung but it's already quite late now. Thus, I'm annoyed. Yes, I'm annoyed when I don't have enough time. And yes, you may laugh because I'm always watching old series. =p

keep it to yourself

It's utterly disgusting how you insult people's dreams and aspirations. It's disgusting because you simply label it as something negative and terrible, yet at the same time you have no idea it takes hard work to achieve it. If you really think it's so ugly then you people should just keep your shit comments to yourself. People with such aspirations do not need your crappy comments. Truth be told, you can't really deter others by voicing out such harsh remarks. If you think it's something so ugly, why don't you try doing it yourself? Try achieving something similar? What were you doing while you were at my age?

Not that I think highly of myself but it's the truth that such thing requires consistency, discipline and effort. It's alright if you're not supporting me. It's alright you're not providing me with the necessary tools to do so but it's totally not acceptable when someone insults something like that over and over again. Keep those insults to yourself. No one wants to know. Take a look at yourself before insulting. Just because you're not exposed to that field itself, you should not voice out your opinions. You only make yourself sound more like a fool. A 101% noob. I wonder why people never do research before trying to give advice? Basically, your advice equals to zero because you talk without any substance. It's based on mere assumption.

Sick of this. I don't think I'd like to explain anymore because you people never get it. People need to be more exposed to the western cultures, especially health and fitness. Dumb. Bet it's heaven when I stay alone. Everything is possible. Screw it. No idea why I am getting so pissed off because of this. Maybe it's because of the heat. Maybe because I'm craving for jelly. Maybe because time and over again they've annoyed me with such stupid remarks. Maybe yes, because I'm sensitive? But so what? Screw it.

Moving away from my pointless ranting, I'm actually quite glad to see Foong Vai and Leong today. Haven't seen them in ages. Wish they'll go to KL soon. Finally got to watch Wolverine. This time, the strings attached to them aren't visible. Teehee.

Suddenly I feel much better when I think of my IE classes. =D

mr G please leave me alone

Fucking hate gastric.

Makes me feel old. Timing a bit off then gastric visits me. What a loyal friend.

First day attending lectures. It was a bit boring and very very tiring. Fortunately I only have to wake up at 6++ once per week. Out of the 3 lectures that were conducted today, Computing Principles was the most enjoyable. Mr. Siva has a wicked sense of humor. His 2 hours lecture beats Finite Maths which was only 1 hour and 30 minutes. I forgot what he was talking about but he was trying to relate this; to something.

My friend told me this guy was going out with another guy. Eh, gay lah. So I was like, so? You wanna make an issue out of it? What's wrong? For example you like KFC, she likes McDonalds, he likes Pepsi, I like Coke, but that guy likes guys. It's that simple.

It's as simple as that. Why must people make a fuss out of such trivial matters? It's subjective. I truly believe that many people nowadays are "pansexual".

Ahh, and I'm trying to find more series which has Linda Chung in it. Suggestions? I'm fuming over here because dad and aunt are taking over the dvd player. They're watching the isudahlupathefulltitle-Zohan movie. I wanna watch my tvb series! I'm soooo not me nowadays. Truth be told, sometimes I'm a bit afraid of myself.

so not eventful

What's the purpose of ambulances?

We've been taught to give way to them, how important they are, etc. It's a matter of life and death, so why are those drivers so annoyingly lackadaisical? Tch. Seriously, they need to improve. Grandpa fell down from the chair this morning. He fell backwards. We didn't know which parts of his body weren't okay but it was pretty obvious he couldn't stand or walk. Thus we had to phone the ambulance. They asked one thousand and one pointless questions. My goodness. Then they asked for the address. It was such a pain explaining to them so mom and aunt drove to one of the nearby restaurants to lead them to our house. People, we're not living in the STONE AGE, I wonder why they don't practise using GPS? This really explains how we're not fully utilizing technology. When the first ambulance arrived, they said, "..not this house, we're from Batu Gajah, so we'll be leaving..". Wow, I'm so impressed by their attitude. Mom and aunt had to drive out again to meet another ambulance. Such level of stupidity actually exists. B-o-d-o-h.

I just realized how stunning Linda Chung is. *drools*


What's the perfect Mother's Day gift?
And I'm actually a bit happy. Will be watching The Red Baron soon when I have the time. More LH. On a random note, I'm looking forward to Tuesday. *grins*