i don't like what you just said

It's 4 a.m. in morning. Woke up about an hour plus ago and I just could not get back to sleep. It has been like that since few days ago. Symptoms of Insomnia? Ah, screw that. Therefore I decided to wake and use the comp. Browsed Persona 4 message board, played Chor Dai Di and listened to some music. I had my lights on of course. Don't wanna screw my eyesight. There's no one online on my MSN contact list. Most probably everyone is busy sleeping. Suddenly I heard a knock on the door. I took off my headphones. I thought it was THOSE thing. Then suddenly another two knocks. I unlocked my door and it was actually my mom with this "WHATTHEFUCKAREYOUDOING-face". She looked pissed. Heck, I was even more pissed because what she did scared the shit outta me.

She asked me what I'm doing. So I just told her the TRUTH. THE TRUTH. And she eyed me suspiciously. She's ALWAYS SKEPTICAL. Why can't you choose to believe your daughter for once? I don't get it. As if I ALWAYS fucking lie to you. Then she came in and looked at my comp. Oh okay, now I GET IT. Most probably she thought I was surfing PORN or maybe some other abnormal stuff. I got kinda pissed and I asked her whether there's anything wrong with surfing the net. She told me right in my face to switch off the lights, the comp and go to sleep. Of course I defied. Why would I not defy? I already told you I couldn't get back to sleep. What's the point of tossing and turn on the bed if I can't sleep? Furthermore I don't even have school tomorrow. If you have work tomorrow then why can't you just go to sleep instead? None of my business. I'm not even causing any noise or disturbance since I always have my headphones on when I'm listening to music after 12. How inconsiderate of her. Just because she wants to sleep, she has to make me sleep. Then I asked her what's with all the skepticism. She got even more infuriated and scolded me saying that any mom would get concerned and suspicious if their kid is up in the middle of the night facing the comp. Apparently nowadays there are too many kids messing with the comp in the middle of the night. Okay so what even if I was surfing porn? NO PROBLEM you see. I'm already 17. It's all natural to surf porn. It's not even something EVIL. Not that I'll go killing people after watching. Furthermore, porn = free sex education. That's not even covered in school. And do you even bother to teach me in detail? No right? So porn is good in some way but just because I'm awake at 4 in the morning, it doesn't mean I'm doing something nasty such as looking at porn. I DO HAVE a life. Btw, I think anyone who intends to surf porn at 4 in the morning would think of switching off the lights. Do I make sense? Obviously yes. And I actually have worst things on my comp. A collection e-books about occult stuff and some materials by Anton Lavey. Because of what? Because I'm curious, that's all.

After arguing a bit, she looked around (at my desk). Gosh, the way she looked was as if I was hiding something really big from her. I got really annoyed and I asked her what was she looking at? She said, "Can't I even look at your things? So now I can't enter your room?" I just kept quiet. Geez. Then she asked me why are there so many used tissues on the desk. OH, Once again I know what she's thinking. I'll let you figure out what she thought of the tissues at the moment. Yeah, go figures. It depends how you interprete it. *smirks* Well, in actual fact, I used those tissues for my nose. I have sinus, so my nose can get really bad during certain hours of the day especially before I sleep and the moment I wake up. She didn't seem convinced. Oh, fuck it, maybe next time I should use handkerchiefs so that you wouldn't suspect such things. Whatever. I just shut up since explaining wouldn't do much help.

Next, she asked me why am I getting pissed over such thing. Hell, why would I NOT be pissed? First, you scared the shit outta me by knocking the door all of a sudden. Second, you came in and got so skeptical when I explained to you the truth. Third, you're telling me to sleep for no reason and I already told you I can't. At the end of the argument she said I have attitude problem. Who's the one having attitude problem? Thank you mom for ruining my night. After having such an argument with her, I'm even less sleepier now. You know what you did mom? You're making things worst for me. Thank you so much and good night.

Usually I wouldn't rant about such things on my blog but this is exceptionally annoying and actually I'm taking this opportunity to vent my anger because I could not get DDS or P3 FES this evening. Yeah since I was so bored and tired, I went to sleep after dinner at 9 ++. So this explained why I woke up. Since there's nothing much to do now, I'll just continue browsing the boards and listening to David Cook. Have I ever mentioned that this guy is amazing? Crazy ass vocals. His post Idol self titled album is effing awesome, in all aspects. Really. One thing I really like about the songs in this album is; the guitar solos are actually quite good for a mainstream album.